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Recipes, health tips & my wellness journey from a (mostly) healthy chef

  • Almond, Ricotta & Polenta Cake + #GivingTuesday Giveaway!!

    Few things make me happier than cooking for other people. Ok, so you moms out there who are fed up with trying to cook for the world’s pickiest eaters who also happen to be your children, might disagree with me. But just try this – think of someone who could use a bit of encouragement. Then make a batch of your favorite cookies, brownies, cake or quick bread, wrap it up in a cellophane bag with a ribbon and tag, or stick it on a paper plate and put it in a ziplock (it’s just going to be unwrapped and eaten anyways) and then give it away to said person. It will blow their mind, make their day, put a little spring in their step and smile on their face. And you’ll feel pretty good too.

    Today is giving Tuesday, and just think of the impact we could have if we all gave just a little something today – an hour of our time, a listening ear, a freshly baked cake, or say a microloan to a woman entrepreneur. Many of you know that a few years ago I had the opportunity to live in the Philippines and volunteer with an amazing Christian microfinance organization, because of my volunteer work with PEER Servants. And as an active volunteer, I am giving today to PEER Servants’ #GivingTuesday Razoo fundraiser for CSS in India. They provide microloans to women entrepreneurs in Kolkata, who with a small loan, are providing for their families and creating jobs for others in their community. Here’s the link to learn more:

    Giving Tuesday Razoo Fundraiser for Women Entrepreneurs in Kolkata

    So listen up! For every person who signs up to follow my blog today, I will donate $1 to CSS India to provide microloans for these deserving women! Spread the word!

    Are you saying to yourself, this sounds awesome, but what the heck is a microloan? I have a bunch of posts about microfinance – you’ll learn more than you probably ever wanted to.

     

    But wait, we were talking about cake! Here’s a recipe for the most delicious almond, ricotta and polenta cake. It’s gluten free, which is awesome because everyone is scared of gluten these days (myself included). And you can top it with whatever fruit you have laying around. I happened to have plums that had seen better days, but try it with berries, apples, figs, pears…

    Don’t have polenta? Or don’t even know what it is? (it’s the Italian version of grits, BTW.) You can substitute cornmeal, no problem. No need to spend the money on the fancy ultra-fine, blanched almond meal. I use the unblanched almond meal from Trader Joes, which is a great value and the almond skins add a bit of texture and color to the cake.

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    Recipe: Almond, Ricotta & Polenta Cake (GF)

    Makes 1, 9″ cake

    Ingredients:

    5 eggs, separated

    3/4 c unsalted butter, softened

    1/2 c brown sugar

    1/2 c granulated sugar

    1 lemon – juice & zest

    1 c ricotta

    1 1/2 c almond meal (unblanched or blanched)

    1/2 c fine polenta (or cornmeal)

    1 tsp vanilla extract

    3/4 tsp salt

    Plums or other fruit, quartered

    Turbinado sugar for sprinkling on top

    Instructions:

    Preheat oven to 350°. Grease bottom & sides of a 9” springform pan or regular cake pan if that’s all you have. Line bottom of pan with a circle of parchment paper (to keep the cake from sticking). 

    With and electric mixer, beat egg whites to stiff peaks. In a separate bowl, beat together both sugars, lemon zest & butter until light and fluffy, 2-3 minutes. One at a time, add egg yolks to the creamed butter/sugar mixture, beating after each addition. Next, add ricotta, lemon juice & vanilla, and mix until fully incorporated. Add polenta, almond meal & salt, and beat until smooth. In three additions, gently fold egg whites into the batter. Spread into the prepared pan and arrange fruit wedges on top. Sprinkle top of cake and fruit with turbinado sugar.

    Bake in center rack of oven for 45 minutes, or until a cake tester inserted in the center comes out basically clean (a few crumbs may cling and that’s fine, you just don’t want to see raw batter.)

    Let cool on a wire rack for 10-15 minutes until your cake pan has cooled. Remove cake from the pan, return to the wire rack and let it finish cooling completely, about 2 hours. Gently peel the parchment paper from the bottom of the cake, transfer to a plate, wrap it up in plastic, and give it away!!

    This recipe can be doubled, in case you want to give one and keep one, which I highly recommend!

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  • Sisterhood of the Traveling Pumpkin Bread + Recipe

    I love that we have a whole day devoted to giving thanks.  It doesn’t matter where we are or who we’re with, what we’re eating or what circumstances we find ourselves in, there is always a reason to give thanks! This year I hosted my very first Thanksgiving and I consulted and cooked for a client who was hosting her very first Thanksgiving! I loved every minute of making game plans, fielding questions, cooking traditional dishes and trying new recipes, making pies and artfully setting my table. I always find myself reminiscing at the holidays and was thinking of  how different this year is from the non-traditional Thanksgivings I’ve had…eating gingerbread gelato in Nice, cooking for a crew in Italy, and eating pumpkin bread in Manila that had been shipped to me from half way around the world.

    And at Thanksgiving, I always think of pumpkin bread. Here’s a re-post of some Thanksgivings past, and a recipe for the only pumpkin bread you should ever bake.

    For as long as I can remember, one of the dishes I’ve looked forward to most each holiday is my Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread.  This pumpkin bread has ruined me from being able to enjoy any other pumpkin bread out there.  It is incredibly moist but with a slight chewiness, and the sweetness is tempered by an intense pumpkin flavor and perfect blend of spice.  Some loaves are flecked with walnuts, some with chocolate chips, and some left plain (for the pumpkin purists).  Our family has been enjoying this treat since long before the dawn of America’s pumpkin craze/commercialization…did you know that the first day of autumn is no longer September 21, but it’s been officially changed to the day in August when Starbucks releases its pumpkin spice latte?

    Growing up I’d always spend Thanksgiving morning helping my mom in the kitchen or setting the table (probably a bit begrudgingly) but would always get excited when tasked with slicing the pumpkin bread and putting it on a plate, as I got to nibble on any crumbs that “accidentally” appeared, while knowing that there’d be mutiny in my family if I dared take a piece before dinner was served!  My cousins and siblings are equally obsessed, and we would always fight over the leftovers, savoring each bite, and reminding ourselves that more would be coming to another holiday soon (we now request it at Christmas and Easter!)

    Our family is now scattered about, so when any of us can’t join the Ondrick/Rogers clan in Mass, we just bake the pumpkin bread ourselves.  The first Thanksgiving I ever spent away from my family I was in Italy for culinary school.  As the leaves started to turn and the air got crisp, I started to crave pumpkin bread.  Fresh pumpkin was easy to find, but I couldn’t find canned pumpkin anywhere.  So I bought a fresh pumpkin, cut it up, and cooked it in a cryovacked bag in my school’s steam oven.  I then stayed late after class, joined by two classmates, to pass the pumpkin through a sieve, yielding a delicious creamy puree.  We changed out of our uniforms and puree in-hand, attempted to head home.  Now, our school was in an old castle with a 12 foot wrought-iron gate surrounding it.  It was close to 8pm, and when we tried to leave, the gate was locked…we were trapped inside the school grounds!  We went back into our building and looked for anyone who was still lingering or a janitor cleaning up from the day, but everyone was gone.  Trying not to panic, we began searching for a way out, while periodically calling out for anyone who might hear us to come to our rescue.  Finally we found a back entrance where the gate was only about six feet tall.  We rallied our courage, threw our bags (and pumpkin) over first, and then helped to hoist each other over the gate!  I  made it home, baked two loaves in pans I borrowed from school, shared with my class and kept the other for my roommate Christine and I to eat for breakfast.  It was so worth almost having to spend a night sleeping in our school kitchen!

    On the actual day of Thanksgiving that year, I had moved on from school and was staging at Ristorante l’Angolo d’Abruzzo in Carsoli, Italy.  The restaurant owner, Lanfranco, asked if I wanted to cook a traditional Thanksgiving meal for the kitchen crew, and I excitedly agreed!  The chef, Valerio, asked what ingredients I would need – turkey, potatoes, chestnuts, fresh currents (as a substitute for cranberries), apples, and of course – pumpkin.  A few days before I was to cook this feast, Lanfranco informed me that the only turkey they were able to find weighed 30 pounds!  This was out of the question, so the whole dinner was in jeopardy of not happening.  I stayed optimistic, and the day before started preparing some items – currant “cranberry” sauce with orange and spice, dough for my apple crostata, pumpkin pie, and pumpkin bread.  All the cooks scrunched their noses at the idea of a dessert made of pumpkin. “How can this be?  Pumpkin in a cake?  It makes no sense!  Surely this can’t taste good!”  I just smiled and thought, “they’ll see!”  That night, Lanfranco still didn’t know if the turkey was going to arrive, but early the next morning I awoke to him yelling, “Ashley, la tacchino e arrivata!”  The turkey had arrived!  I jumped out of bed, threw on my clothes, and ran down into the kitchen.  I examined the turkey – it was about 15 pounds and a real looker.  I made a stuffing with roasted chestnuts and apples and got it into the blast chiller so that I didn’t give us all food poisoning (never stuff a cold bird with hot stuffing!)  I got the turkey stuffed and into the oven, then made an apple-mock mincemeat crostata with an almond crumble, buttery herb biscuits, and mashed potatoes.  The sous chef, Manuel, was supposed to come in and help me, and when he finally strolled into the kitchen later that morning all he cared about was seeing where the turkey was stuffed…nel cullo!  Lanfranco had invited a bunch of friends over, and I was now feeding a group of 20!  He uncorked some wine as I brought out all the dishes, serving them family style, and then Valerio attempted to carve the turkey.  He was looking at it like it was a foreign object, and before he butcher the poor bird, asked if I’d carve it instead.  They all sat in amazement as I removed the legs and wings, carved the breast, and then the dark meat.  The meal was a hit!  When it came time for dessert, I whipped up some cream and served a small slice of each of the three tortas.  This was a tough crowd, and lets just say that I don’t think America’s obsession with pumpkin sweets will ever catch on in Italy.  But everyone cleaned their plates!  That Thanksgiving is definitely one I’ll never forget.

    Two years ago I spent Thanksgiving in Manila.  As the warm summer turned to fall in the US, July to November is rainy season in the Philippines thus it had been hot, humid, and rainy since I arrived in July.  But without any change in seasons to spark my pumpkin cravings, it happened anyway!  I’ll blame it on social media, since pretty much all my Instagram and Pinterest feeds are food-related.  One day while browsing the grocery store shelves (one of my favorite activities) I found a lone can of Libby’s pumpkin!  I was so excited, but on further inspection I found the can dented and dirty, and the expiration date told me it had been sitting on the shelf since last year.  I acquiesced to living without pumpkin for a year, and besides, our condo didn’t have an oven. Shortly after, my amazing cousin Lily told me she wanted to send me a package and asked what I’d like.  I immediately responded, “pumpkin!”  She mailed the package the beginning of November, and three weeks later when it still hadn’t arrived I started to worry.  I prayed all week that it would arrive by Thanksgiving so that I’d have some taste of home.  Wednesday evening while at work I received a notification that my package was ready to be picked up at the post office! I would be picking up my package on Thanksgiving!  Thanksgiving morning I received a sweet email from my Auntie Linda, telling me that she was baking away…pumpkin bread, sweet potato casserole, and she even sent a picture of a loaf in an adorable pumpkin patch pan sent to her by…Lily!  I loved the email and could smell the sweet spice from her kitchen as I read it.  But man, did it make my mouth water for some pumpkin bread.  I think I was craving that more than any other Thanksgiving food.  I decided that I would request it at the next holiday I spent at home, and tried to put it out of my mind.  Penny and I went to the post office to pick up my package, dodging Jeepney’s and the other wild motorists.  I couldn’t wait to open it, and found it filled with pumpkin goodness – pumpkin spice coffee, pumpkin crackers, and something wrapped tightly in tinfoil and plastic.  As soon as I began to open it, I was hit with the unmistakable aroma…it was Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread!!  Lily had baked me a loaf, brimming with chocolate chips that helped keep it moist.  I broke into it with my bare hands, with the biggest smile on my face, savoring every bite.  It didn’t matter that it was now three weeks old, and had traveled half way around the world.  This pumpkin bread is the best!!  My first thought was that I couldn’t let anyone here know about my treasure.  I would take it back to my condo, and slowly eat it over the next week (or who am I kidding, eat half of it that night for Thanksgiving dinner!)  But the more I thought about it, the more I knew that I would enjoy it most if I shared it with others.  That’s what I love about being a chef – sharing meals together, seeing the delight on people’s faces when they are enjoying good food. 

    All night I kept smiling when I thought of this recent series of events…going from missing my family and our Thanksgiving feast, to my amazement and delight when I opened Lily’s package and found the pumpkin bread inside.  These are the moments when there is no denying that not only is there a sovereign God who makes null coincidence, but that he is intimately in tune with all our needs, and loves to delight his children. “And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”  (Ephesians 3:17-19)  One of my favorite verses, and was part of my day’s devotions!

    My breakfast the next morning consisted of a hunk of pumpkin bread and a steaming mug of pumpkin spice coffee.  I then cut the loaf into pieces, just like when I was a kid helping my mom on Thanksgiving morning, left a piece for my roommate, and brought the rest into work with me.  As I unwrapped the loaf in my office, I shared with my co-workers the story of the pumpkin bread, how it’s my Aunt’s recipe that we have at every holiday – a family favorite, and how my cousin had baked this and shipped it all the way from the US to Manila.  Together we finished every last bite, and they kept exclaiming, “masarap!”  which means, “delicious!”  Don’t be surprised if the pumpkin craze does catch on in the Philippines!   

    Here’s the recipe for my Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread. The high ratio of wet ingredients to dry makes this bread incredibly moist. It keeps at room temperature for a week (but how would I know, it never lasts that long!) If you don’t need both loaves, bake them anyways, stick one in your freezer, and you’ll have it for last-minute company or a sudden craving for pumpkin bread.

    Pumpkin Bread

    Makes 2 loaves

    Ingredients:

    2c pumpkin puree (look for BPA-free cans)

    1 c neutral oil (I prefer sunflower or safflower)

    4 eggs

    3 c granulated sugar (unbleached if possible)

    2 1/4 c all-purpose flour

    2 tsp sea salt

    1 tsp nutmeg

    1 tsp cinnamon

    1 tsp cloves

    1 tsp baking powder

    1 tsp baking soda

    optional add-ins:

    1 c walnuts or pecans, roughly chopped

    1 c dried cranberries

    1 c chocolate chips

     Instructions:

    Preheat oven to 350°.

    In a large bowl, wisk together the eggs, sugar and pumpkin puree. Separately, wisk together flower, salt, spices, baking powder and baking soda. Add dry ingredients to pumpkin mixture and mix until just combined. Mix in nuts cranberries, or chocolate chips if using.  Grease 2, 9″ loaf pans, pour batter into pans and bake for 50 minutes or until a cake tester inserted into the center of the loaf comes out clean (a bit of crumbs may cling to your tester and that’s fine, just make sure the batter in the center of the pan has fully cooked).

    Let cool on a wire rack, then keep wrapped at room temperature for up to a week, or freeze one loaf for up to 3 months.

  • Pumpkin Pecan Granola

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    I’m taking full advantage of the last week of pumpkin everything! As promised, here is my recipe for pumpkin pecan granola. This granola is so good, plus it makes your house smell like the most amazing pumpkin spice candle (like the way you wish Yankee Candle smells when you walk by the store). Rather than just containing pumpkin spice, it contains a good amount of pumpkin, which lends a slightly chewy texture and a dose of vitamins and nutrients. It’s sweetened with honey and brown sugar but go ahead and use a different sweetener if you prefer (maple syrup, coconut sugar etc.). Using olive olive oil provides phytonutrients and antioxidants, but again swapping this for a different oil is fine, I’d just stay away from coconut oil here (I don’t care what people say about it being a “neutral” oil – it tastes just like you’re eating a coconut!) Whip up a batch and then the uses are endless…

    • Be rockstar host – package in individual bags and give as a parting gift to your Thanksgiving guests
    • Be a rockstar guest – bring it to whomever is hosting your Thanksgiving
    • Breakfast (duhh) – atop your favorite yogurt, smoothie bowl, pancakes, waffles…
    • Straight out of the pan – save your containers for Thanksgiving leftovers

    Pumpkin Pecan Granola (GF)

    Makes 6 Cups

    Ingredients:

    2/3 c pumpkin puree (look for BPA-free cans)

    1/3 c extra virgin olive oil

    1/3 c honey

    1/3 c brown sugar

    1 1/2 tsp sea salt

    2 tsp pumpkin pie spice (or 1 tsp cinnamon, 1/2 tsp ginger & 1/2 tsp nutmeg)

    4 c rolled oats (look for oats labeled “gluten free” if this is an issue for you)

    1/2 c pecans – left whole, broken in half or roughly chopped

    1/3 c dried cranberries

    Instructions:

    Preheat oven to 325º.

    Into a large bowl, measure these ingredients in this order and you won’t need to wash your measuring cup in between: brown sugar, pumpkin puree, olive oil, then honey. Add spices & sea salt and wisk it all together. Add oats and pecans and mix until oats and nuts are evenly coated.

    Spread mixture evenly onto a large rimmed baking sheet (appx. 15″ x 10″), place it in the oven and bake for 15 minutes. Remove pan from the oven and stir granola with a large metal spatula. You’ll notice that the edges and top are starting to get brown, so you want to redistribute the granola for even cooking. Place the pan back in the oven for 10 minutes, then repeat the stirring. Cook and stir in 10 minute intervals 1 or 2 more times until your granola is evenly golden and beginning to harden (it will continue hardening as it cools). Add the cranberries, mix once again, and return to the oven for 5 minutes. Let cool on a wire rack, then store in a glass container, package in cellophane bags, or put directly into your mouth.

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  • New Blog and A Very Special Dedication

    I am thrilled to announce that I am re-launching my blog! What used to be “Cooking Up Reciprocity”chronicling my life as Elsa – living in the Philippines and eating my way through Southeast Asia, has now moved with me to Saint Petersburg where I live and work as a (mostly) healthy chef, cooking instructor & health coach. And so I welcome you to…

    A (mostly) Healthy Blog

    On this blog I’ll share… what I’m cooking (and think you should be too), tips for stocking your pantry and cooking with intuition, fun workouts I’ve tried (and lived to tell about), interesting health nuggets, discoveries & strategies, my travels to exotic places (and obviously that means everything I eat while I’m there), farmers market finds – like what to do with that weird tangled mess of a root vegetable, and anything else I think will float your boat, as my Aunt Marijane likes to say.

    I can’t think of a more fitting way to be launching this (mostly) healthy blog than by dedicating this blog to my Auntie Lorilee on the 8th anniversary of her passing. After all, my Auntie Lor was my inspiration to get in the kitchen and the epitome of what this (mostly) healthy blog is all about…nurturing your body & soul with quality food, finding exercise you enjoy, devoting time to meaningful relationships, and living with spiritual fervor. And so I’m dedicating this blog to her, and the first recipe I’m going to post is for the first food I made on my own because of her inspiration…Granola! Don’t miss out! “Follow” my blog and stay tuned for my recipe for Pumpkin Pecan Granola.

    In the meantime, the following is a repost from 6 years ago when I was living in Manila, and I wanted to shared it again today. I hope my Auntie Lor can be an inspiration to you, just like she was and continues to be to me.

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    This is a very special post, dedicated to my Auntie Lorilee.  Although cancer took her life 6 years ago today, she didn’t loose the battle.  She fought with endless courage, bravery, determination, and strength.  And she did so with unfathomable joy, a sense of humor like no other, and a voracious appetite and command in the kitchen!  And it was her love of feeding people, her excitement over good food, and the enjoyment she got from sharing it with others, that inspired me as a fledgling cook and is a source of continual inspiration as I now cook for others. 

    Auntie Lor would find something she liked…and soon we all liked it!  Now, our whole family is obsessed with good food.  It’s the focal point of all gatherings, celebrations, and holidays.  Of course we’re there to spend time with each other, but where do us women gather?  In the kitchen!  The food is our source of tradition, it’s what we fuss over, it’s what we talk about…”did you see Grandma’s apple pies?!”…“wow, this is a great batch of Auntie MJ’s crab dip!”…”oh the kids helped me decorate the cookies!”…”I used pears instead of apples this time”…“I tried this new recipe from Gourmet…” that was Auntie Lor.  Thanksgiving is coming up, and one of my favorite dishes in addition to Grandma’s French meat stuffing and Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread, is Auntie Lorilee’s sweet potato casserole.  I’ve loved it for as long as I can remember, but only found out as I got older that it didn’t always grace our dinner plate but got it’s humble start as one of Auntie Lor’s new recipes she tried that year.  And I could go on with examples of such dishes…cranberry Waldorf salad, Charlotte’s chocolate cake, egg strata, chocolate crinkle cookies, apple cake…

    It’s funny how certain things stick with you.  Lock-and -lock containers.  Auntie Lor tried one, was hooked on their “locking” ability as a means of keeping leftovers fresh, and soon had a whole pantry stacked with every shape and size imaginable.  And she told everyone about them!  I’m sure that half of Rutland was going to their nearest lock-and-lock supplier and stocking up.  She should have received commission!  Eventually they lost their popularity in the states, probably as PCB fears gave rise to the use of glass storage containers.  Every once and a while I’d see one and chuckle.  Then I moved to the Philippines.  My first trip to the grocery store I was already shocked at how many familiar products lined the shelves, and in searching for some plastic containers I found…you guessed it, lock-and-locks!  But that was just a small display.  I soon learned there are entire lock-and-lock stores here!  I can’t help but laugh every time I pass by one.  Auntie Lor exuded the kind of passion and energy that she could make even a simple plastic container exciting and “lock” into my brain!

    It was this passion and excitement, coupled with how absolutely delicious everything that came out of her kitchen was, that drew me into the kitchen with her.  I’ll never forget sitting in the kitchen, mesmerized as Auntie Lor explained to me the science behind a flaky pie crust.  How the butter MUST remain chilled and in small chunks, because since butter contains about 15% water, once it enters a hot oven that water turns to steam, and that steam forms layers in the dough that result in a puffy, flaky, tender crust.  I went home and soon after baked my first strawberry rhubarb pie with an all butter pie crust.  (It was Grandma who taught me how to bake my first-ever pie – apple with a shortening crust; the two equally delicious and memorable!)  Auntie Lor made a special breakfast cereal that she once gave me a small bite of.  It was amazing!  I again stood transfixed as she explained her technique: combine bran flakes, fiber twigs, shredded coconut, and slivered almonds.  Drizzle with maple syrup, spread on a jelly roll pan, and bake; every 5 minutes removing from the oven, drizzling with a bit more maple syrup, and stirring.  For the final touch, add golden raisins with yet another drizzle of maple, and bake for one last increment.  This cereal inspired me to start making a maple almond granola, which after a few tweaks I perfected the recipe for and soon had my family hooked on.  Again, I could go on and on with similar stories of the ways Auntie Lor inspired me, instructed me, encouraged me, and fueled the spark that drove me to becoming a chef.

    When Auntie Lor got sick and we all started visiting frequently, it was just known that we would show up with food.  There was no preemptive phone call of, “should I bring something for dinner?” but instead, “I was thinking of making spinach manicotti for dinner.  How does that sound?  Do you want to get the bread from Babalouies?”  Bringing a meal is not something that’s expected in the sense that it’s taken for granted, rather it’s because the act of making a meal is an outpouring of love, an extension of oneself, and this sentiment is mutually shared by all who gather at the dinner table.  Auntie MJ probably made enough meatballs to feed half of Rutland, not to mention clam sauce, francese, manicotti…and so many more amazing Italian dishes that came pouring out of her kitchen with the same love and care as new olive oil flows from the press.  And this held true for the rest of the women in our family as well.  But there’s no way Auntie Lor would let us do all the cooking!  As soon as we’d arrive, it was off to the farmers market to buy ingredients.  Then Auntie Lor would sit and instruct her fleet of sous chefs on just how exactly she wanted the vegetables prepped for the terrine, how the butternut soup should be thinned and seasoned, how to assemble the chocolate raspberry pie (an experience my mom will never forget!), how long to bake the morning glory muffins…

    We ate a lot, and we ate well over those 16 months! 

    We spent a weekend together on Cape Cod at Auntie Mj and Uncle V’s house.  Auntie Lor instructed me on how to make her famous quattro formaggio.  She had brought all the ingredients, and as I went to chiffonade all the basil, she insisted I leave a perfect sprig untouched.  As I pulled the bubbling cheesy crostini from the oven and transferred them to a Polish Pottery platter, she simply but beautifully garnished one side of the platter with the flourish of basil.  That simple herb made the dish complete, and little did I know that not too long after, I would spend countless nights that turned into years, garnishing platters in my job as a catering chef – again thinking of Auntie Lor all the while.

    Yes, writing this post is emotional and oh so bittersweet.  But you know that unfathomable joy I said she lived each day with?  It wasn’t just because she lived for a good joke, and had a family whom she loved to pieces, and amazing friends who surrounded her.  It was because she knew that this life wasn’t the end.  She knew that her Redeemer Lives!  I am grateful beyond measure to have had her as my Auntie – for her presence in my life, for all that she taught me, for her influence and inspiration, for these precious memories that flood my mind regularly – and that I know without a doubt that I will see her again one day.  

  • My Philippines in a Pili-Nutshell

    Did I really live in Manila?  Was I really called “Elsa” and asked to sing Let It Go by complete strangers on a daily basis?  Did I really ride in jeepneys instead of buses; motor scooters instead of taxis?  Did I really wade in knee-high water after a rain storm and pay enterprising boys to use their makeshift bridges in order to cross the street?  Did I really high-five children who once lived on the street and now attend a Christian boarding school; play soccer with young boys who once scavenged and stole for food; taught “Ring Around the Rosy” to girls who were rescued from trafficking?  Now that I’m back in the states my life in the Philippines sometimes feels so long ago and far away that it seems like it wasn’t reality, but rather a really vivid (and long!) dream.  But then all it takes is for me to picture the smiles on the faces of those precious children, or to remember the sounds of my friends’ laughter when a guy tried to snap a selfie with me, or for Let It Go to start playing on the radio.  I did live there, and it was amazing.  Here are just a few ways God chose to use me – a stubborn & selfish, tattoo wearing, sometimes swearing, chef and completely unworthy Christ-follower.

    I had been volunteering with PEER Servants for 2 years and was working as a chef in Boston full time.  I joined team Philippines and learned about how God was using CCT to transform both the material and spiritual lives of those it serves and I became ever more excited and passionate about being a part of it.  I also witnessed the way that CCT employees and PEER Servants volunteers alike were really living out the call to become true disciples of Jesus, deny oneself, and be servants of Christ.  When CCT requested an intern I felt God calling me to “go”.  I quit my job, sold my car, used the savings I was blessed with to cover all my expenses, and entrusted everything to God.  This was the biggest leap of faith I’d ever taken in my life, and I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.

    I arrived in Manila in July, and spent the first part of my time there seeing first-hand how God was using CCT to extend His Kingdom.  While CCT has its roots in microfinance, they do so much more.  I traveled to both of CCT’s boarding schools for former street dweller children and their technical-vocational school for idle young men.  I handed out over 200 meals to street dwellers at one of their many weekly feeding programs and visited CCT’s half-way house for those looking to start a life not lived on the streets.  I toured a garment factory that had closed because of poor performance, and now under CCT’s management is operating 200 times more efficiently.   I visited CCT’s beautiful retreat center which hosts guests from all over the world, and sat in on fellowship groups of micro-entrepreneurs and heard testimonies of how loans from CCT are enabling them to provide for their families and employing others in their community.  The common thread amongst all these experiences was that Christ was at the center, and his love was proclaimed first and foremost.  Everyone I talked to said that while they were so thankful for the material blessings, they were even more thankful for the spiritual transformation in their lives and in the lives of their families. 

    I then moved on to projects that PEER Servants was partnering with CCT on.  The Nehemiah Project is CCT’s response to Typhoon Yolanda that devastated much of the Visayas region in November of 2013.  CCT responded by meeting with local officials in some of the hardest hit towns, and partnered with aid organizations and churches from all over the world to align resources.  Through PEER Servants’ partnership, over $50,000 from Grace Chapel’s Christmas Eve offering was used to support this endeavor.  A fleet of skilled workers needed to be trained in order to rebuild homes and cities, and the teachers for this training are the graduates from CCT’s technical vocational school.  These young men whom the world would have looked at as nobodies, are now trained instructors who are equipping Yolanda survivors to rebuild their lives and communities!  I attended graduation ceremonies of over 200 skilled workers who would be employed by their local governments to build-back better than before.  The government officials shared that they had never before witnessed this kind of rebirth.  I was so in awe of the way God is using CCT’s presence to make his mercies known, and bring people to himself!  Over 150 houses were also donated.  I joined CCT pastors and staff trekking door-to-door thanking God and praying for His continued blessings.  PEER Servants will now help CCT develop a Project Nehemiah blog to capture and report all that God is doing.

    In September, CCT assembled a team to start working on the Transformative Economic Empowerment or TEE conference that takes place each November.  CCT’s partners from all over the world come to this conference to experience first-hand how God is using CCT to extend His kingdom.  PEER Servants has an integral part in the planning and execution of this week-long event, and I was able to serve as the TEE liaison.  In addition to assisting with last November’s conference, I’m now able to use that experience to help with next November’s event, called Pagdiriwang, or “celebration” in Tagalog.

    While I definitely missed being away from home over the holidays, God filled me with such joy and thanksgiving as I was able to help with many Christmas parties for precious children who had never know the kind of Christmas I grew up with.

    Finally, I worked to develop a crowdfunding program to help raise funding for CCT’s boarding schools for former street dweller children.  Over 100 children who once had no home, sometimes no family, empty stomachs, and no hope for a brighter future, are now learning about Jesus’ immense love for them while receiving a stellar Christian education in a nurturing home-like environment.  A group of us from team Philippines have been and will continue to work with CCT in developing a crowdfunding website in order to allow the schools to continue to flourish and grow.  Stay tuned for the launch of this exciting endeavor! 

    My experience in the Philippines and with CCT was immensely rewarding.  Living in a third-world country was far from easy, but God used all my experiences to make himself so real to me, to show His unfathomable love for me, and to teach me to fully rely on Him.  He is all I need.  I am so thankful for the way that God has used PEER Servants to give me this incredible opportunity, and am excited to continue serving to extend His kingdom!

  • This is Love

    One year ago today, I was snowed-in my Cambridge apartment, crying over the end of a relationship I had such high hopes for, only to find out the guy was only after one thing (and it wasn’t my cooking.)  This was the last straw.  I could fill pages with my horrid/hysterical dating experiences over the past few years…here are a few gems:

    “Do you smoke pot?  Because I’m a total pothead”

    “Hehe, you call your jobs gigs?  Like a band?  Thats so funny.  Hehe”

    “I think Moses was tripping when he saw the burning bush”

    “I consider myself Christian because I work in aeronautical engineering, allowing people to live in space, close to the heavens” “Want to see me in my cop uniform?”

    “I spent Christmas with my dog.  I cooked him a really nice dinner”

    “I’m most comfortable when I’m by myself, solving the answers to complex questions”

    “I’m a bit of a germophobe – you can never be too careful when it comes to germs.  I wouldn’t use that knife if I were you”

    Dating life?  Big X.  Job?  Ready to pull my hair out (the first quote could also have been my boss talking.)  And so I started praying.  Praying that God would give me an opportunity to take what I looked at as a less than ideal situation, and instead use my singleness and willingness to be jobless to experience more of life – and more of His life in me. 

    And so one year later, here I am in the Philippines, with just two weeks remaining of my eight month stay here!  I had been volunteering with a Christian microfinance organization for a few years, and becoming more and more involved and drawn to the amazing work God was doing in the Philippines through our partner there – The Center for Community Transformation (CCT).  I had been planning a two week visit since back when I started volunteering, but when the opportunity arose for me to work there full-time on the projects I’d been working on from the states, I heard God loudly and clearly tell me to GO!  I’ve already written about the peace He gave me to come here.  That’s not what this post is about…it’s Valentines Day, after all! 

    The desire of my heart before coming here was that God would be very real to me and show Himself to me in new and amazing ways.  I faced many challenges during my time here – it was never easy.  And loved ones and the comforts of home were so far away.  But time after time God used those challenges to show me that he is all I need.  He is enough.  That trials do produce perseverance, perseverance – character, character – hope.  I also had so much joy in being here, and I was constantly amazed at the love God pours out so freely and generously.  Through the trials and joys of being here – in learning what it means for God to be my all, my first love, and watching in amazement at the ways He delights in providing for his children – God taught me what it truly means to delight myself in Him.  Not a day goes by that I don’t think of this verse and smile: “Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desire of your heart” (Psalm 37:4).

    Last week as I was cooking dinner, I was listening to a podcast on singleness and marriage from my favorite Pastor in NYC.  For the first time ever, I thanked God that I am still single; I thanked God for the all the bad dates, and for that night I spent crying in my kitchen, because that brought me here to the Philippines.  That brought me to the place of enjoying and resting in a faith where God is all I need, and produced a joy in me that is separate from circumstances.  I know so many people with this kind of faith, and had longed for it, but for some reason I always was a difficult child.  God had to take me by the hand and lead me to the other side of the world – away from the comforts of home and the comforts of the first world – before I was ready to receive this gift.

    I’m spending this Valentine’s Day with my favorite group of single Filipino ladies.  I’m making us a breakfast-for-dinner feast:

    Croque Monsieur with Cayenne Honey

    Chocolate Chunk Pancakes with Raspberry Vanilla Bean Sauce

    Feta and Herb Scrambled Eggs

    Passion Fruit, Mango, & Papaya Fruit Salad with Fresh Ginger

    Whipped Cream

    And there’s no place else in the world I’d rather be.  But Dad, don’t worry, this isn’t a proclamation that I’ve given up on dating!

    And one last thought…just because.  What to me is the ultimate Valentine’s message…

    “This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.”  “You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.  Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die.  But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.  Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!  For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!”  (1 John 4:10; Romans 5:6-10)

  • Hanoi, Socialist Republic of Vietnam

    While the plane ride from Siem Reap to Hanoi was less than 2 hours, it seemed like we had traveled between two different worlds.  The Visa process went quickly and smoothly thanks to the letter of approval our hotel had helped us attain.  Again a chauffeur awaited us, but this time our driver remained nameless and our tuktuk was replaced by a large, overly air-conditioned  van.  The outside temperature had also dropped by over 20 degrees.  We were so excited to be in Vietnam, it seemed surreal!  As we turned off the bleak highway and shops and restaurants dotted the landscape, Elissa and I had only one thing on our minds – must find pho, ASAP!  Pho is the Vietnamese noodle soup, and Hanoi is its birthplace.  In deciding between visiting Hanoi or Ho Chi Minh, Hanoi won hands down when we learned it had the best Pho in Vietnam (hence the world!)  And the cooler weather made hot soup even more appealing.  Our hotel was modest, but the staff was beyond friendly and accommodating.  We promptly set out to find Pho, and quickly discovered that there was no seating inside of any of the restaurants.  Locals were perched on tiny plastic stools, gathered around tables on the sidewalks.  Most of the cooking was also being done on the sidewalks!  So our criteria for a restaurant soon became A. that there was Pho on the menu, and B. that we could sit inside.  We were pretty limited, but found a somewhat dodgy looking place filled with older men and advertising Pho.  We ordered a chicken Pho and crab spring rolls, expecting the fresh rolls we had become so accustomed to eating in Siem Reap (we even had some in the airport waiting to board our plane for Hanoi!)  As we waited for our food to arrive, we started reading the rest of the expansive menu, and found it was categorized by protein…chicken, beef, pork, fish, pigeon, frog, and dog.  Yes, that’s right; offered either boiled or fried.  Welcome to Vietnam!The pork list was expansive, offering boiled pig’s ovary and an assortment of different sized intestine.  The noodles and broth satisfied our Pho craving for the evening, although our mantra remained #phoateverymeal.  The “chicken” was orange strips of mystery meat, and considering the menu offerings, we didn’t dare try it!  The restaurant had decided that a gruesome American horror movie made good dinner entertainment, so we quickly slurped our Pho and headed back to the hotel for the night.  Police were cruising the streets in small trucks making announcements over megaphones, and I don’t know if it’s because I knew it’s a socialist country, but the city had an Eastern European feel, and at times reminded me of the backstreets of Prague.

    Our first mission for Thursday was coffee!  We headed out , map in hand that we had worked with the hotel staff in marking the whereabouts of coffee shops I had researched, the Old Quarter, and the meeting point for our food tour that was to take us to many local spots sampling all the local dishes.  The neighborhood felt so different by day than it had the previous night, but the small red plastic stools remained on the sidewalks, and we found a cafe with many locals sitting around drinking coffee.  As historically there was no fresh milk in Vietnam, the strong espresso-like coffee is served with sweetened condensed milk.  It settles to the bottom, which allowed me to stir in just as much as I wanted.  I always take my coffee with milk no sugar, but the sweet milk really accented and balanced the richness and strength of the Vietnamese coffee. IMG_2987 In front of almost every restaurant, right out on the sidewalk, was a vendor preparing some sort of food.  Women had an assortment of vegetables and noodles laid out on the sidewalks on plastic baggies, ready to roll spring rolls.  One man was making thin rice-flour crepes filled with mushrooms and pork; a woman was frying glutinous rice fritters filled with vegetables.  On each block, steam from pots of simmering broth or water for noodles, set over open flames, gently billowed.  We wanted to try everything, but restrained ourselves, not knowing what we would try on our tour, but knowing we would soon be eating a lot!  I learned and observed later on that this was the breakfast crew, and in most cases a whole new round of vendors would takeover these sidewalk spots at lunch and then dinner.  In many cases, 3 different tenants rent out the same strip of real estate!  They each pay a different rate, and although the cooking takes place on the sidewalk, the restaurant is the actual rental space as the sidewalk is owned by the government.  When the police come around (which is pretty frequently), diners and vendors scatter, leaving their food behind, and then return soon after when the police are gone.  They say not to worry…your soup will still be there and will still be hot when you return!  There was also much food being transported along the busy streets.  People carried long poles over their shoulder, with baskets of produce hanging in balance on each end.  Also many bicycles carting produce and flowers, and scooters were everywhere!  I had heard that traffic was nuts and that cars don’t stop for you.  I was again interested to compare traffic to that in Manila.  It was busy!  But thankfully not polluted.  Scooters would come out of nowhere, so we always had to be careful with each movement.  Trying to cross the side streets was fine, but the more main roads were much more difficult.  A helpful tip we learned was close your eyes, and go for it!  Do not stop, and NEVER go backwards.  The motorists will see you in the road, and move around you accordingly, often going behind you, thus any sudden or backward movement will mess with their plan for avoiding you!  There were also clothing stores everywhere selling an assortment of US and European brands, all for reduced prices, stating “made in Vietnam.”  There were also numerous Northface “outlet” stores with the same slogan, and the prices were majorly reduced.  These items really did “fall off the truck”…they were made in Vietnam and then stayed in Vietnam!  Between the bustle of people carrying produce, bicycles, and scooters on the streets, and coffee drinkers, vendors and soup pots and steam on the sidewalks, and stores brimming with merchandise and shop owners advertising it, and horns honking, and smells of rich broths simmering  – it really was sensory overload!  But wonderful!  We arrived at the tour office, and they had just given away our spots!  IMG_3013A miscommunication with the hotel who booked it for us, and the time we were supposed to meet.  Thankfully we re-scheduled for that evening, and at this point very hungry, we were on a mission to find more pho!  We also wanted to explore the Old Quarter – a maze of 36 streets, each named after the item sold there – gold, shellac, silk, coffee, lanterns.  Our hotel had circled the area on the map and it was a bit of a walk, and it was cold.  Many of the street names started with “hang” followed by more words…hang bac, hang bong…it was really easy to get “hung up” in navigating (so bad, I know).  After walking a ways we decided to go for a ride on a pedicab.  The Vietnamese version has the bicycle in the back, and a carriage large enough for 2 (maybe 3) people in the front.  They’re painted all white, and many of the drivers wear military looking wide-brimmed hats.  We took the scenic route along the beautiful lake that sits in the middle of the city.  Our ride was great until the driver tried to rip us off.  I had read that a trip should only cost $1, he asked for $5; we gave him $2 and quickly walked away.  I had also ready that Hanoi was a dollar economy…but every time we tried to pay with dollars the locals looked at it with disgust!  And no one understood the word “dollar” when we would ask before a purchase if they were accepted!  We hadn’t exchanged any dollars for dong, the local currency (about which I made continuous jokes, as you can imagine. )  Our theme song for this portion was, “that dong, da dong dong dong…”  After wandering around fruitlessly trying to find the small area circled on the map, asking several people for help finding the Old Quarter (one man even did a Google search for us) we realized that we were IN the Old Quarter and had been the whole time!  In our wandering, we came upon a man making banh mi sandwiches of sorts…on the sidewalk of course.  He was grilling skewers of pork, using scissors to cut open a baguette, and adding pickled vegetables and hot sauce.  We were so excited!  After many photos and drooling, ours was ready.  The flavor ended up being disappointing, but the excitement leading up to it was worth it!  We were still on the hunt for pho, and as we walked through what we now had figured out was the Old Quarter, we saw a woman out on the sidewalk in front of a restaurant, chopping duck on a large wooden cutting board.  Inside the restaurant – a rare sight, were a few diners eating large bowls of pho.  We quickly ordered ours, and it was so worth the search!  The broth had a strong poultry flavor, and the accompanying fresh herbs were great.  We spent the afternoon exploring the streets of the Old Quarter, and at every turn were amazed at the sights and smells of the food coming from the sidewalks.  One alleyway had several large pots of broth that smelled so good I wanted to stick my head in it.  We turned one corned and saw a man inside a restaurant/meat shop, knife in hand, holding a rabbit strung up by its foot.  Jaws dropped, we watched while in one swift movement he pulled the fur right off of it!  Elissa and I had just been discussing the proper technique for this two nights before with some people on our Siem Reap food tour.  I couldn’t believe my eyes!!  As we walked about in amazement at this whole new culture, we had quickly established a coffee-pee routine.  Walk for a while, fiIMG_3027nd a good looking coffee shop, relieve ourselves of all the liquids we were consuming (coffee & pho), and fuel up and warm up our freezing bodies with more coffee and the chance to be indoors.  We came upon a cafe with many people sitting out on the sidewalk, drinking coffee or a ubiquitous, mild, room-temperature tea.  There was a woman crouched down on the side of the road (not even the sidewalk!) beside a small frying pan set over a charcoal fire kept in a metal basin, with a metal shield on one side to trap the heat.  She was cooking up omelets that smelled amazing, transforming them into yet another banh mi of sorts, and selling them to the people drinking at the cafe.  Quite ingenious!  The rest of her set-up included a bag full of eggs, a small cup and chopsticks to whisk the eggs, a bag of chopped fresh herbs, a small bottle of salt, a squirt bottle of oil, a basket holding a plastic bag of baguettes, scissors to cut open the baguettes, pickled papaya and carrot, hot sauce, and newspaper sheets to wrap the sandwiches in.  After whisking the eggs, adding a generous handful of herbs and seasoning, she fried the omelet, folded it in half and tucked it into the baguette, topped it with pickled vegetables and hot sauce, and then crisped up the outside in the sauté pan.  It was the most amazing egg sandwich I’ve ever eaten, and on our last day in Hanoi, Elissa and I relentlessly searched the streets, in the rain and cold, until we found this woman again, since she doesn’t “rent” any one sidewalk space.  Hungry yet?  Good!  So now onto our food tour!  Our guide was adorable and had just finished college.  IMG_3030Each tour is different as the guide gets to choose where they take the tour participants – usually to their favorite spots.  So we ate like college students!  We started off with pho ga – an assortment of pork preparations, swimming in nuoc cham (famous Vietnamese mixture of fish sauce, lime, and sugar), served with noodles and fresh herbs and greens.  Next was a traditional banh mi, the baguette containing pork loin, head cheese, pork pate, butter, omelet, hot sauce, and pickled vegetables.  At this point I was full already!  After that was bang cuon thit – the rice paper crepes filled with beef, wood ear mushrooms, and topped with fried shallots, that we had seen the man making that morning (it’s traditionally a breakfast dish.)  After that came the chance to try Vietnam’s version of balut – hard-boiled, fertilized duck egg.  Hanoi’s is a much fancier version than the Filipino, and it’s served in a bowl, out of the shell, in nuon cham and garnished with herbs.  Elissa was so brave and ate it like a champ, while trying it once was already enough for me!  Next were dry noodles topped with beef and squid jerkies, quail eggs, and pickled vegetables, that we ate out of plastic containers perched on small plastic stools in front of a cafe.  We sipped lemon tea, which is actually made of limes, and then when a certain vendor came by we sampled Vietnamese pancakes.  Crepes filled with freshly grated coconut, crispy burt-sugar nougat, and black sesame seeds.  Really good!  We thought we must be nearing the end, but were told we still had 4 more stops!  Next was for an assortment of fried spring rolls – an egg roll of sorts, a glutinous rice fritter like we’d earlier seen, a traditional spring roll, and a sweet bean fritter, always with nuoc chom for dipping and greens and herbs for garnish.  We had a palate cleanser of an assortment of candied dried fruit with ginger, and fresh fruit dusted with chili, sugar, and salt (like in Siem Reap!)  Finally we were onto dessert, where we tried an assortment of the “classics”.  Different variations of flan or yogurt, with sticky rice, condensed milk, and fruit.  My favorite was tangy black sticky rice cooked with coconut milk and topped with lightly sweetened yogurt.  Another interesting one was a glass full of sweet beans and ice, topped with toasted coconut.  Our last stop was for the famous “egg coffee” and despite how full we were, it was so worth it!  You can order it hot or iced, I went for hot, and received a small cup with intense coffee on the bottom, and a light creamy zabaglione on top.  The story goes that the now legendary owner, as a young man, worked as a waiter at a fancy hotel.  When he couldn’t find any milk for the guests’ coffee, he added egg instead.  The zabaglione is made with egg and sweetened condensed milk, and after sampling it on its own, you gently fold in the coffee.  It was absolutely amazing!  We saw the founder as we were leaving, old and cheerful, as his son now runs the business!  On our tour we met people from all over – UK, Germany, and two women our age who work together in San Francisco.  One was originally from LA, and the other grew up in Acton but most of her family live in South Hadley!!  Thankfully it was early when the tour ended, and we decided to spend the rest of the night walking off our feast.  At one point we stopped into a cafe – this time for a beer and a pee, as we wanted to try the local “biya hoi”.  It’s brewed daily, widely available only on tap across the city, and whatever is leftover at the end of each day is discarded.  It’s less than $0.50 cents a glass – cheaper than water!  We capped off all the walking with $4 foot and back massages before heading back for the night. 

    Friday was a welcome change from the bustle of the city…and constant eating!  We went on a day-long tour of Halong Bay, a three and a half hour drive each wIMG_3062ay from Hanoi by bus, then boat tour of the bay.  We again had a wonderful guide, and the views were incredible.  Huge rock formations rise up out of emerald water.  The most famous rocks look like 2 birds fighting (or kissing, depending how you look at it.)  There are also floating villages here, like in Siem Reap.  Thankfully the rain held off, and we enjoyed some lounging on the deck (just not in bikinis!)  We hiked inside a vast cave at the edge of one of the formations, filled with stalagmites and stalactites.  The cave was probably 100 feet tall at some points, and you  could spend hours coming up with objects that the formations resembled.  We returned to Hanoi that night with pho still on our minds, as we hadn’t eaten nearly enough of it yet.  My research, confirmed by the guide from our food tour, led us to Pho Bat Dan, famous for their beef pho.  No one there spoke English (always a good sign) and the woman in charge was big an burly, expertly hacking and shaving off pieces from huge slabs of different cuts of aged beef.  We didn’t know what to order, so we just chose two of the three pho options.  One contained thinly sliced brisket that melted in your mouth, and the other had brisket and a chewier, thicker cut as well.  Both had generous amounts of scallions and fresh noodles, and the most intensely amazing beef broth I’ve ever eaten.  Seasoned with a bit of chili and fish sauce, I could have taken a bath in this soup!!  We wandered through the night market that sets up on the weekends along one of the main streets, but since it had started to rain most of the food vendors hadn’t ventured out, and we weren’t interested in anything else!IMG_3115

    Our last day was Saturday and our flight back to Manila was late that night (actually 1:00am Sunday morning).  It was even colder, and raining, and we bundled up (I had broken down and bought a jacket for $25 mid-way through the first day there).  Our plans to tour outside of the Old Quarter with a scooter guide were cancelled because of the rain, so we set out to explore other parts of the Old Quarter we had yet to visit.  We found an adorable shop owner selling all sorts of silk scarves, and had fun shopping and talking with her.  We found the market, which was a sight of dried fish of all sizes, shrimp, and squid, fresh seafood, sacks of rice and spices, dried mushrooms, noodles, produce, and so many items I don’t even know the names of.  This area led us to another section that was outside the more touristy grid.  We were actually shooed away at one point by an unfriendly restaurant owner who thought we were looking to come into her place (and probably try and pay with our disgusting dollars).  It was shortly after this encounter that Elissa and I spotted a woman hacking pieces of whole-roasted meat on a cutting board.  We saw the butt of the animal, and immediately knew that was not a pig’s tail we were looking at.  We saw it with our own two eyes – whole roasted dog!  At first we just saw some cut up into various parts, but then we saw three whole dogs, about two feet long, with big angry teeth.  Maybe this was why we were shooed away – like they feared were going to send PETA after them!  The one consolation from the whole encounter is that they were all the same dogs, so it doesn’t seem like they’re just rounding up stays (or pets) and cooking them.  Once we regained our appetites, we ate at a cute little restaurant promoting home cooking with interesting spins on some classic dishes.  The food ended up being inedible, which I don’t say very often!  We had ordered an assortment of appetizers, and one was worse than the next.  This is when we set out to find the egg sandwich lady again!  This time she was set up in front of a small shop, where her only customer was the shop owner, and now us.  We ate them while getting ripped off at yet another foot massage parlor – at this point we were wet and our feet were numb, but at least we had bellies full of amazing banh mi, loads of pho and coffee, and minds and hearts filled to the brim with all we has seen and experienced. 

  • Siem Reap, Kingdom of Cambodia

    Elissa and I set out from Manila for Siem Reap not knowing what to expect, and but ready for an adventure.  We were greeted in the airport by a large stone elephant with its trunk up – a good sign according to my Bacci!  The visa process was chaotic.  We filled out forms, waited in line for processing, then were herded into another area where we waited with a large tour group from Japan to receive our passport and visa back.  The tour group were dressed so as to be prepared for any and all situations they may possibly encounter; decked out in wind-proof, rain-proof, moisture-wicking, spf-containing, pants-that-turn-into-shorts and shirts that double as parachutes (not 100% sure about that one.)  After having our names called out from a barely audible voice, we headed to the immigration officer.  Elissa got through with the blink of en eye.  I on the other hand was grunted at to place my hand on a fingerprint scanner, then grunted at several more times as I wasn’t doing it properly, all while the officer paid more attention to his phone than to me.  Although we were hours delayed at this point, our tuktuk driver was waiting for us, holding a sign with my name on it, ready to bring us two weary travelers to our hotel.  Elissa’s driver introduced himself as “Mr. Handsom” and my driver was Mr. Pov, and adorable guy around our age. The airport was in a remote part of the city, and we drove along a street filled with trees and not much else.  Slowly, huge temple-like resorts started to appear.  Our hotel was nearer to Pub Street and the temples, and at first glance seemed old, but slowly the beauty and character of the place was evident.  Wood carvings adorned the walls, our room was simple yet pretty, and a dish of rambutan, bananas, and clementines awaited us.  Thankfully there was a restaurant open next door and we had our first taste of Cambodia – warming soup, fried dumplings with a gingery-garlicky pork filling, and an in-edible scallion pancake, then collapsed into bed to rest before a day of temple trekking and exploring.

    Our hotel breakfast consisted of muesli, fresh fruit, and instant coffee which smelled strangely of hot chocolate, but it did the job.  We had arranged for Mr. Pov to take us to the temples and then the floating village that day, and after being advised to change out of our shorts and tank tops so we would be admitted into the temples, we set off before 9am in dresses, with eager anticipation of all we were going to see.  Our tuktuk awaited us and Mr. Pov had come prepared with a cooler full of water.  We set off for Angkor Wat, and as we drove over dirt roads, soaking in the clean air and lush, beautiful landscape, we instantly fell in love with the tuktuk and Mr. Pov.  Our slogans became #everythingsbetterinatuktuk and #onetuktukforlife.  IMG_2976Angkor Wat was so vast, with so many corridors and alleyways, and intricate stone carvings of goddesses and flowers and vines.  There was a large buddah-like object, and as a man reverently prayed before it, so did his young daughter for a few minutes until her attention span for such devotion ran out.  People were adorning this statue with food, fruit, and intricately woven flowers.  The main temple within Angkor Wat had a line to get into it, and we chose not to wait as we had a packed schedule.  We saw some beautiful Cambodian women in native costumes of butterflies and peacocks.  The colors so vibrant with gold accents.  We also tried fresh palm juice, which tasted and smelled like sweet buttered popcorn.  Not a good combination.  Exiting Angkor Watt we passed through the market area, where we were instantly drawn to the ornate fabrics and elephant patterned princess Jasmine pants #notleavingwithoutelephantpants became another mantra.  Searching for Mr. Pov outside the entrance, we saw small shells covered in chili and salt, spread on a metal pan atop a wooden cart and wondered what it was.  On our night market tour we found out that the small shells are cooked by the heat of the sun drawn to the metal tray, and these are a popular snack, as we soon saw such peddlers all over the city.  Mr. Pov whisked us away to our next stop, the Bayon Temple, and as we drove through the jungles, we spotted a large pig, then a few monkeys, then a man riding an elephant!  All in the span of about two minutes!  Where were we?!  And what was next?!  When the Bayon Temple was constructed it had 49 towers, each displaying 4 faces of the gods and king.  Needless to say this temple was quite…in your face!  I loved climbing through the rubble as much as the in-tact parts.  There were so many stairs, passage ways, nooks and crannies.  I loved all of the faces.  Both in Angor Wat and here at Bayon, the rock had a charred black look in many places, like there had been a fire.  Visitors had stacked rocks from the rubble and I felt like I was back in Shutesbury or Wendell.  Our last temple stop was to Ta Prohm, and to get there we walked down a long jungle path, where at points we were serenaded by groups of men playing traditional Khmer instruments.  I was not prepared to be so amazed by this temple, and the beauty of God’s creation!  Whereas the elements have left their dark handprint on the other temples we visited, the beauty of Ta Prohm has been enhanced by being left to the devices of the jungle that surrounds it.  Monstrous trees grow right out of the temple, their exposed vines weaving and choking the stone structure.  IMG_2736As the sun gently streamed through the canopy of leaves, I expected to see fairies and wood nymphs appear.  It’s a magical, tranquil place, while at the same time it had a “Temple of Doom” feel, as I could picture Indian Jones marching around, cutting away vines with a machete in search of hidden treasure.  I learned from later research that in its peak the temple was home to more than 12,500 residents, 18 high priests, and was maintained by 80,000 Khmers who lived in the surrounding area.  Famished by all of this temple trekking, Mr. Pov took us to a local spot where we tasted traditional Khmer (Cambodian) cuisine.  Our banana flower salad with chicken was incredible – the banana flower was tender yet crunchy, balanced by local herbs, and dressed with the flavors of nuon chom.  This ended up being one of the most memorable dishes of our entire trip!  Our fresh spring rolls had pork, herbs, a type of local green, vegetables, and more nuon chom.  The Fish Amok Curry, the national dish of Cambodia, was delicate yet immensely flavorful.  The fish melted in your mouth, and a chiffonade of a local greens added welcomed texture.  The only downside to the meal was our iced coffee that tasted like a coffee milkshake!  We were quickly learning that we would not get a good cup of coffee until we reached Hanoi! 

    Mr. Pov was a doll, periodically giving us more water, asking us if we were doing ok, and how we were liking everything.  His English, especially comprehension, was minimal, and our conversations were really comical at times, but we made it work!  He told us that he takes an English class for one hour each afternoon.  We taught him the word, “cool” and I’ll never forget how he sounded saying it.  Our plans for the afternoon were to visit a floating village and Mr. Pov informed us that the more beautiful village was several hours away, so we opted to go to the closer, less beautiful village.  Our ride to the boat was so picturesque as we would through neighborhoods, markets, and jungle.  The roads were a mix of concrete and reddish soil, and while people certainly live simply, and often poorly – sometimes in makeshift houses, there was nowhere near the poverty or filth that I’ve become so accustomed to in the Philippines.  The streets are relatively clean, and I didn’t see anyone begging except a few in the downtown area.  Siem Reap is also so much less commercialized, and it was such a welcomed change to drive through neighborhoods and not be bombarded by advertisements.  We arrived at the port and the brown canal was lined with boats ready to take us to the village.  As we gave our ticket stub to the collector, I noticed a girl snap a picture of me.  I wondered why she did this, and thought maybe she also thought I looked like Elsa.  On our boat was Mr. Pov, our captain, and his assistant.  Elissa and I sat on the bow, soaking in the sun and the view.  Along the canal was a tall sand embankment and there IMG_2767were loaders, dump trucks, and Volvo bulldozers doing site work.  I didn’t know what to expect of this floating village, and when we finally hit the open ocean, we were told we had arrived (and according to our Captain, were looking at Vietnam!)  The village is all boats; many of them houses – all with fishing nets.  There were also some restaurants, mostly catering to tourists and boasting many different cuisines, and there was a Catholic church and a Christian church, and a school.  We were let off at a souvenir boat where there were also a few crocodiles held in captive display in a hole cut in the center of the boat.  In a small canoe next to this boat sat a mother with a baby sleeping peacefully in a tiny hammock strung between the two sides of the canoe.  On the opposite end sat a young boy with a boa constrictor wrapped playfully around him!  After shrieking, I took a picture of this scene and then quickly walked away.  The little boy started asking for money, and then got out of the boat!  He wanted me to pay him to pose with his snake, and started chasing me around!  I was screaming at him to go away, and our boat captain had to intervene and tell him to leave me alone!  IMG_2762Our captain brought us safely back to shore, and as we were leaving the port, a woman appeared holding two small plates, one with my photo on it and one with Elissa’s!  That’s why she snapped that shot!  What a sneak, and entrepreneur, as we couldn’t say no to purchasing this memory for $5!  By now, hopping onto our tuktuk was second nature, and as the sun set we headed back to the hotel to freshen up before a night out on Pub Street.  Back at our room, I realized I was and had been completely relaxed all day.  Even though we were in an entirely foreign place that I knew so little about, and had spent our day at the mercy of our fearless tuktuk wielding guide, I could not have felt more at ease!  What a magical place! 

    Pub street was about a 15 minute walk from our hotel, and involved walking past all sorts of shops, restaurants, spas, and hotels.  We met a woman who had just opened up a sidewalk bar 2 days prior, and she lured us in with her signature pina colada.  She used fresh pineapple juice, coconut cream, and dark rum.  Too bad I hate rum, but Elissa loved it!  I was happy with the sweet spicy peanuts, until I ate a large piece of a small red chili and got violet hiccups!  Elissa also tried jackfruit from a peddler, and we both agree it tastes like bubblegum and garbage.  The scene on Pub Street was vibrant, and architecturally had a New Orleans feel.  Picture Bourbon Street, minus the drunkenness, debauchery, and slutty women.  Difficult, I know!  We found Red Piano, Angelina Jolie’s hangout during the filming of Tomb Raider, which was positioned on a corner.  Next to it were a few restaurants, than a large open-ended massage parlor, a nightclub, and then more restaurants.  Most of the people around us were tourists, but of all sorts – families, couples, friends, singles.  It was actually really nice to be surrounded by such a mix of people, rather than standing out as the lone white blonde!  And this mix also contributed to the tame yet vibrant vibe.  IMG_2926Lining every major street were fleets of tuktuks!  We couldn’t take two steps without being asked, “tuktuk?”  I decided our theme song for Siem Reap should be “a tuktuk her and a tuktuk there…”  Loving the atmosphere of Pub Street, we didn’t really feel like sitting down to a Khmer meal, but rather a “Tomb Raider” cocktail from Red Piano – Angelina’s signature drink of Cointreau, lime, and tonic.  I now know she has no taste in drinks, as this tasted like a Smirnoff.  We ordered a beef dish with egg and rice, and while underwhelmed, we got to taste the fresh green peppercorn, kampot, only found fresh in Cambodia!  Again in search of a decent cup of coffee, we went into the famed Blue Pumpkin ice-cream shop, where our coffee with Baileys was spoiled!  Strike 3!  We ended the night with an hour of foot, head, neck, and shoulder massages for $4, seated in an open-ended parlor, and enjoyed some great people watching!

    Tuesday was market day, as we planned to explore the old markets during the day, and then had booked a night market tour that night.  Our hotel breakfast routinely became coffee, fruit and muesli (like a couple of old women) and then for lunch we sampled several Khmer dishes from a stall at the edge of the market.  The lotus flour salad was pretty tasty but lacked the complexity of the previous day’s banana flower salad.  We also tried what ended up being pork intestine casserole topped with egg…and by tried I mean one-bite, simultaneously on-the-count-of-three, with water and a napkin standing by!  What we thought was  fresh bamboo shoots with a bit of chicken ended up being all fresh ginger!  Talk about overwhelming!  Elissa got to try the ubiquitous Asian morning glory greens; underwhelming in how they were prepared here, yet hard to find outside of Asia.  The highlight of our meal were fried dilli fish, so fresh and crunchy, like the perfect bite of fish and chips in a tiny little package.  The market was a bit overwhelming, with lots of stalls selling the same items…spices and dried fruit, silk scarves and coverings, t-shirts, bags, and elephant pants!  We found some great deals on Cambodian pashminas, and I found a stunning silk bedspread with images of Angkor and elephants embroidered in rich gold.  The outskirts of the market had smaller boutiques selling artisan versions of what was within – silk, spices, and woodwork.  A river runs along the back of the old market, and along this street we found the coolest cafe, with real coffee!  It’s called Sister Srey, and its mission is to raise money to help local Cambodians receive an education.  The menu was healthy and eclectic, sourcing locally and adding a twist.  The menu was presented inside an old children’s book, which was adorable!  In addition to our iced coffee we got a “tavocado” sandwich – toasted bread spread with guacamole, topped with roasted grape tomatoes and local feta, and served with pesto.  We also had the most amazing coconut banana bread, toasted and served with local honey and butter.  We liked this place so much we ended up going back the next day for breakfast, where we again had iced coffee and the coconut banana bread, but subbed the tavocado for a deconstructed egg sandwich of brown bread, pesto, feta, roasted tomatoes, guacamole…basically the tavocado with a fried egg on it! 

    Next up was our night market tour, and I had already been mentally preparing myself.  I new that the Siem Reap markets are home to many exotic local delicacies, including all sorts of critters, which for the sake of broadening my culinary scope I wanted to try, and this tour promised to expose us to them all!  A tuktuk drove us from our hotel to the hotel/cooking school where the tour was run out of.  There were about 10 of us in our group – everyone else was part of a larger group from New Zealand who had been traveling together in Indonesia for the past few weeks.  The one other participant was Matt from San Diego, who quit his job working in aeronautical engineering and has been traveling across Asia for over 2 months!  Our guide told us loosely how this tour was going to work…we were first going to look at the food at different markets and then eat later on.  We were still a bit confused about what we were supposed to eat verses just look at, but we just went with it.  We first stopped at an open-air market where we tried a fertilized chicken egg, that had been scrambled and seasoned, then stuffed back into the shell and steamed.  Not bad, not great.  We saw vast fruit stalls and got some to eat later on at the end of our meal.  There was a woman cooking fish over an open flame, and was serving it with a sauce made of tree ants, fish sauce, and spices, and topped with an abundance of fresh herbs.  There was a man grilling an assortment of meat, including quail with the egg still attached.  The next market was enclosed and we didn’t venture in, but outside of it were women frying patties made of glutinous rice and stuffed with chives and bean sprouts.  We added this to our collection for later, as well as fresh taro chips and sesame rice wafers.  Our tuktuk took us to a more major highway, and after exiting a rotary, we saw vendors scattering the road and the grassy area dividing the lanes.  We got out of our tuktuks and realized this was yet another market!  We walked past stalls selling clothes and toys, fruit, fertilized eggs, and then came to the stall of fried critters.  IMG_2909Mounds of fried crickets, silk worms, water beetles, and cockroaches!  I first tasted the cricket – it was crunchy and didn’t taste like much.  That was a good thing!  The silk worm’s leathery skin gave way to an interior like creamy peanut butter in taste and texture.  So not a fan.  I didn’t think I could stomach the cockroach…I mean, I freak out when they’re on my toothbrush!  But after seeing Elissa prepare to eat it, as our guide instructed her to remove the wings and the legs, it didn’t seem quite so daunting.  Besides, I looked at eating them as getting my ultimate revenge on the pests!!  So I peeled off the wings and legs, and took a bite from the butt end.  It was again very crunchy, and again didn’t have a whole lot of taste.  Thank God for the deep fryer!  I figured water beetle was the same old story after the others and was just fine not trying that.  We had a refreshing palate cleanser of an assortment of local fruit seasoned with salt, sugar, and chili.  Green mango, olive fruit, grapes, cherries, and a host of others that I don’t know the names of.  As we continued to walk along the road – which in itself was a bit surreal as we were eating such strange, foreign, exotic foods, next to a highway surrounded by locals and tuktuks – we came to an old woman crouching next to an open flame, methodically grilling rice flour pitas.  I watched in amazement as she took the paper thin flat dough, balanced it on a stick over the flame, and flipped it just as it began to puff, separate, and brown.  We added a bag of the pitas to our stash, and next came to a stand of grilled meat galore.  Long bamboo skewers held fish, beef, pork, chicken, chicken butts, quail, frogs, assorted intestine, and much more.  We bought some chicken, quail, and frogs, and then our guide led us to our “picnic” area.  On the grassy side of the road were large mats woven from coconut branches.  IMG_2880Families were seated around, happily dining.  We removed our shoes and then sat indian style in a circle, as our guide set our feast in the middle.   The fried rice cakes with chili sauce were delicious.  Elissa and I shared the part of the quail with the attached grilled egg, which we ate shell and all.  So unique and tasty.  My favorite was the frog.  It was skinned whole, leaving only the leg meat attached to the skin, and then stuffed back with a sausage made of frog, pork, and curry spices.  I ate it with a bit of cool tamarind paste, and it was amazing!  We washed down the meal with Cambodian beer (simultaneously sterilizing our insides from the critters we ingested) and then capped it off with an assortment of glutinous rice-based Cambodian desserts and local fruit.  It was a meal I will never forget – between our array of food, surreal surroundings, and interesting dining companions.  As we were packing up, some young kids came asking for our empty bottles, which we gladly gave them.  Then they started eating our scraps, and when we realized how hungry they were, we started giving them everything else we had left over – mostly chips and fruit.  The last stop of our tour was to a fair in a parking lot just off the highway where we had dined, where there were rides and games.  Elissa bought 10 shots with a dart at a wall of balloons, wanting to give anything she won to the kids.  After taking turns and watching everyone else miss, I hit a balloon!  Thinking I had good aim she gave me the last dart as well, and this time I hit a bottle of coke that was supposed to be a prize.  Coke came shooting out everywhere!  Good thing the motto, “you break it you buy it” didn’t hold here!

    The tuktuk dropped us off at Pub Street, and Elissa and I were enjoying our conversation with Matt about all he had seen in Asia so far, and we decided to stick together for the night.  I had read about the “fish spa” experience and the night before had seen many people  – men, women, and children, causally sitting down with there feet in large glass fish tanks.  It was on my must try list, and we headed back to the same spot where the night before we had gotten foot massages by people (verses by fish).  I sat on the bench and slowly, apprehensively, lowered my feet into the tank.  The fish attacked my poor feet, and I started shrieking!  This was in no way relaxing, nor was it a massage!  It simultaneously tickled and pinched, and I couldn’t stand to have my feet in the water for longer than five to ten seconds at a time!  How did those other people make it look like they weren’t feeling a thing!  Sometimes the fish would straight up bite me, and upon examination later on, I realized they had eaten off some of my nail polish!  Not only did I pay for this torture, but now I’d have to pay for a new pedicure!  I haven’t laughed so hard in a long time though, and the whole experience was hysterical and so much fun!  Our next mission was to try tarantula because we didn’t find any during the tour, but I had seen it on a street cart on Pub StIMG_2911reet the night before.  Matt and Elissa were equally as excited/freaked out, and we set out to find the suckers.  We found a vendor in the heart of Pub Street, who in addition to tarantulas and the bugs we had already sampled, was also selling skewered grilled baby snake.  I could barely even look at it, and some had eggs erupting from their stomachs!  We bought 3 deep fried tarantulas, and then had a full on tarantula photo shoot with them.  I was the first to reach into our plastic baggie of arachnids, and I swear I felt one move and grab my finger!  We each tried a bite, mine was a few of the legs, and then quickly headed to Angkor What? bar for a pitcher of Angkor beer to celebrate/sterilize.  The tarantula was also crunchy and pretty tasteless, but it had a woodier quality that made it a bit hard to swallow.  Angkor beer is actually really good!  We spent the night swapping travel stories, getting Matt’s tips on Hanoi, and then wandered through more of the night markets.  There are open-aired massage parlors everywhere, some of them with 30 massage chairs!  We capped off the night with more fresh spring rolls, needing something in our stomachs after so many fried critters.  I think I dreamt of tarantulas that night. 

    We had learned from Matt that there was a whole other part of the Old Market that we had somehow missed – the part with the food!  We discovered it Wednesday morning, and I’ve never seen anything like it in my life.  Rather than stalls divided into categories, there were mounds of items everywhere.  Women were sitting on the ground filleting fish, with a pile of bok choy next to them.  IMG_2936Tables held piles of vegetables, fresh fish, dried fish, curry and fish pastes, seafood, fruit, fresh noodles, and more women, sitting indian-style amidst it all.  It was hard to get a picture of ingredients without also capturing a random foot in the shot!  The meat area was impressive, and huge cuts of meat down to small strips were expertly broken down.  IMG_2964That afternoon, we had asked Mr. Pov to take us around to see more of Siem Reap before bringing us to the airport.  On our comfortable tuktuk, with our favorite driver, we drove through the farmlands and neighborhoods, down dirt roads where at one point we had to stop to let a heard of cows go by.  Some of them were marked down their back with a red line, and Mr. Pov told us they were heading to be slaughtered.  Cambodia is a beautiful, tranquil place.  The people are endearing and welcoming.  When they speak English, they add an “s” to the end of many words, like “thank yous.”  I loved every minute of our time there, and was really sad when Mr. Pov dropped us off at the airport.  While there are so many other places in Asia I want to visit, I hope and pray to return to Cambodia some day!

  • For the past few years as a catering chef, the arrival of Christmas has also meant the busiest three weeks of the year.  It’s rare if I get a day off before the 24th…and I don’t blame everyone for wanting to throw a holiday party!  When else do you get to dress up in red, gold, and glitter, drink too much eggnog, sing Christmas carols, and be filled with good cheer?  I always cram as much enjoyment into the month of December as possible…decorating my apartment, buying gifts and wrapping them with care, making candies to give away, and hosting special celebrations with family and friends…but I always wish I made more time for sharing this joy with others.  I always jump at the opportunities my church has to buy gifts for children who otherwise wouldn’t have any, but I always want to do more.  In preparing to come to the Philippines and picturing what it might be like to spend Christmas here, I envisioned and hoped that my Christmas season would be like no other.  Not because I’d be surrounded by palm trees and Jeepneys, but because I would get to focus on sharing the joy of Jesus’ birth with the precious children here.  I must have been good this past year, because my Christmas wish came true!  The past few weeks have been filled with Christmas parties for the kids that CCT ministers to, and I’ve jumped at every chance to help with them! 

    The first party was for the kids in the boarding schools, organized by Union Church of Manila.  A few days before, Penny, Michelle, and I met a group of the church women at one of their homes and filled over 100 backpacks with toys, books, school supplies, t-shirts, and Bibles that the church members had given.  The party took place at the school in Puypuy, and the kids spent the morning going from one station to the next – swimming, relay racing, face painting, and making crafts.  I ran the relay races together with Bridget, who doesn’t attend UCM but helps with the party each year.  She grew up in South Africa, has lived in Tampa on and off since the late 80’s, and will be moving back there in 2016!  (I met another woman from the UK who now lives in Manila/New Zealand, and her daughter attended Mount Holyoke College!  Small world!)  Although the weather went back and forth from sun to sudden downpours the whole time, the kids had a blast and didn’t mind getting wet.  I got to meet many of the boys who are in our sponsorship program, and I ate lunch with one of them named Jerby.  Us staff all brought bag lunches, mine was kimbap, and he tried it for the first time!  He told me his favorite foods areIMG_2235 rice, apples, and bitter melon.  After lunch was gift time!  The kids were squealing with delight when they opened their bags filled with gifts!  As the program was winding down, I went back into the kitchen to get some hot water for my coffee.  The school cooks were making turon, a popular Filipino dessert of a banana halve, rolled in sugar, crepe paper, and then deep fried.  I started chatting with all the cooks, and they taught me their technique for making the turon!  Then in the van riding home, I sat with my friend Ashee who loves to cook, and she shared her secret adobo recipe with me, and shared the technique for making puto, another popular Filipino dessert.  Who needs the food network, these informal cooking classes are the best! 

    The next day, I joined Penny and a group of her friends from college who had joined together to throw a party for the kids in Cabrera – CCT’s half-way house for the streetdwellers.  Her friends had generously provided t-shirts for all the kids and staff, materials for gospel bracelets that were pieced together from beads received at each station, and lunch from Jollybee!  My first role was fitting all the kids with their t-shirts that said, “I am a child of God!”  The kids ranged in age from 2 years old to early teens.  Some of the young children arrived with no shirts on at all, and were so excited for a new t-shirt!

    I was then assigned as a group leader of 12 kids, all whom I later learned live on the streets, and had arrived in Cabrera the night before just to attend this party.  Our first job was to pick a team name, and make up a chant for our group.  My group decided on “torrepinest” and I figured this was a Tagolog word I didn’t know the meaning of (which is the case for most Tagalog words.)  It was our turn to chant, and I joined in yelling “torrepinest” and pumping my fist.  Everyone was looking at us with questioning/blank looks on their faces, and I suddenly got worried.  What were we chanting?!  Penny came to my rescue and asked the kids what “torrepinest” meant.  They said it was the name of their group on the streets.  I suddenly feared we had been chanting a gang name!  Kuya Angel who heads up the street ministry (a former street dweller himself), soon explained to me that this group of children live under a bridge, and for fun they go swimming in the filthy water, and then climb up the tower (torre) that rises from the water and jump from it; thus it’s the “finest tower.”  Many Filipinos pronounce “f” as “p”, thus our chant was “torrepinest!”

    Kuya Angel also explained to me the lives of the kids on the streets.  They’re so hungry, and for P10 they can’t even buy rice, but can buy a piece of bread that won’t fill them up, or solvent to sniff that will make them high, forget about their hunger, and then when it wears off they’re tired and can sleep.  The kids start this sometimes as early as 6 or 7 years old.  They become addicted, and then start stealing to support their habit.  The children witness the adults sleeping together, and girls need protection, so as early as 12 years old they find boys to protect them, and in turn start sleeping with them.  Another devastating reality is that most people who live in the provinces view Manila as the big city of dreams, and desperately want their children to have better lives there.  Men come to the provinces, offering jobs for young women and all the parents have to do is pay the transport fees.  The young women arrive in Manila and are forced into sex trafficking.  This was Abigail’s story, a 16 year old who was in my group.  She arrived in Manila at age 14, and her parents thought she was happily employed here.  She had just been rescued from this life and had arrived in Cabrera a few days before, and would be heading to the girls boarding school in Puypuy soon.  She is a beautiful young woman, but her eyes were empty – devoid of life, and her dark brown hair was streaked with gray.  I can’t imagine the fear and suffering she has endured. 

    Another young woman in my group, Russel, had a hard edge, but I could tell she was compassionate.  At the station representing sacrifice, sIMG_2239he was the only one to sacrifice her chocolate for my raisins.  She also acted as the mother for the boys, and sitting there with her bare feet, she picked the lice out of the hair of one of the boys (something I see the street kids doing often.)  In a bit of downtime before the food arrived, I feared that the “torrepinest” would get restless, and then I thought of a Tagalog song that Michelle had taught me!  I only knew the chorus and the hand gestures; translated it means, “I love Jesus, I loves Jesus so much” and when it came time for the chorus, Russel sang the whole thing!  It was finally time for Jollybee and the kids were again so excited!  The cooks in Cabrera had cooked extra rice – it never ceases to amaze me how much rice Filipinos can eat!  So many of the kids saved some of their meager amount of chicken to bring back to their families on the streets. 

    At the end of the party, the kids got up and sang a popular Filipino Christmas song from a TV commercial.  I think I’ve now heard it at every other Christmas party, and it’s pretty much been stuck in my head ever since!  But I will never forget how these children sang this song.  The words are “thank you, thank you, you are such a blessing, I’m so thankful for you this Christmas” and the children meant it with every fiber of their being.  They closed their eyes and stretched out their hands to us, as we stood their with tears in our eyes, bursting with the conflicting emotions of joy for their joy and sadness for their circumstances.

    The following week, high school students from Makati Christian School had arranged a Christmas party for the VOHCS students in nearby Malubay, and I joined Penny to help.  They rented a gym on busy EDSA street to hold the party.  When we arrived, many students, their mothers, and some siblings were already there.  Three girls who were older siblings/friends of one of the students flocked to me and didn’t leave my side the entire time!  I managed to have small conversations with them.  They wanted continuous pictures with me, kept touching my “white” skin and my “big nose” and asking me questions about myself and my family.  The rest of the kids arrived, but the high school students still hadn’t shown up.  Well after the party was supposed to start, Penny finally got a text from them saying they were just leaving their school.  It was going to be at least another hour before they arrived.  Penny and I had a gym full of 50+ six year olds that we had to entertain!  We started by singing songs, but quickly ran out of songs we all knew.  Next we tried to play stop dance with Christmas music, but the Christmas music was a mash-up of Christmas carols and pop songs that were inappropriate for kids!  I IMG_2286tried to get them to sit in a circle to play duck-duck-goose, but as I joined hands with them and tried to have them move into a circle, it instead resulted in them swarming me – a sea of kids pushing me in all directions, and then playing tug of war with each other’s arms.  Fail!  Next, Penny tried a relay race with them.  She got them into two lines, and explained the rules.  When she said “one, two, three, GO!” Half the kids all ran at once!  After explaining the rules again and saying “Go” only a few kids ran ahead (it was progress!) and then as each child would touch the finish line and head back to tag their teammate, the opponent would run back as soon as the opponent did, rather than going all the way to the finish line!  I don’t know who was laughing harder – me and Penny or the kids!  Next I tried “Simon Says” with them.  I really couldn’t think of how to explain it in Tagalog other than saying “Hindi Simon says, Hindi” (insert action), as Hindi means “no” in Tagalog.  I went through as many motions as I could think of, the kids following along, half of them repeating “hindi” the whole game!    

    An hour and a half late, the high school students finally strolled in!  It took them another half an hour to bring in their carload of gifts, and the snacks they had brought.  They didn’t have much of a program planned, and one of their games was also stop dance, which the kids were already tired of.  The girls who were not part of the school hadn’t left my side the whole time, and since they couldn’t participate in the party, I shifted my focus to entertaining them.  We played English and Filipino variations of “I went to a Chinese Restaurant…” and they wanted numerous piggy back rides and me spinning them around.  If I stopped for a minute I was pulled in all directions!  I felt like raggedy Anne by the end of the afternoon, and in desperate need of a shower, but they were precious!  After handing out consolation prizes to all the kids, plus a Christmas gift to each, there were still a ton of extra gifts.  The students asked if we could use them somewhere else, and Penny and I excitedly IMG_2297said we could bring them with us the next day to the Christmas party in Payatas.  Our budget for that party was the small amount of leftover funds from other parties, and was only for the pre-K class there.  The community center had asked if we could include the 150 kids who are part of the savings circle, and we had regretfully said no.  So our plan was to give these gifts to the savers, only we didn’t think there would be enough for all of them.

    Our next challenge was how to get the gifts back to the office (as Penny and I had taken the train there).  One of the mothers had a Jeepney, and volunteered to take the gifts from the gym to the VOHCS office!  We loaded all the gifts inside, and it really looked like Santa had arrived in the Philippines driving a Jeepney!  Although annoyed with the irresponsibility of the high school students (who didn’t even apologize for being late!)  Penny and I couldn’t be upset with them because they had given so much to the kids, both in Malubay and for the next day in Payatas!

    When we returned to the office, I went back to brainstorming a slogan for our child sponsorship program.  As I was seeking inspiration from quotes about the importance of children, I was so struck by my interactions with the girls.  In the words of Princess Diana, “Hugs can do great amounts of good, especially for children.”  Any thought of feeling like a dirty, rag doll melted away.

    The last party was in Payatas, home to the Manila dump.  A few days before, Michelle, Penny, Gieza and I had gone to Divisoria, the huge warehouse shopping district, and haggled our way through stalls to find the best deIMG_2308als on school bags, water bottles, coloring books, and school supplies for the 40 kids at the school.  We were so excited for the kids to receive their colorful new bags!  Michelle had arranged a fun program, which included action songs, games, a Christmas story, and a Jollybee lunch!  During the story, the teacher was talking about the star of Bethlehem, and asked the kids if they had ever seen a really bright star.  They all answered, “NO!”  Of course not…you can’t see starts in Manila!!  During the party, one of the teachers counted all of the extra gifts that were to go to the savings group.  There are 150 savers in Payatas, and there were 151 gifts!!  Penny and I were speechless in amazement and God’s provision for these children! The Christmas music was again a mash-up of hip-hop and carols.  The kids had dressed in their best clothes for the party, and when “boots with the fur” started playing, I noticed that IMG_2312one of the girls was literally wearing boots with fur! 

    That afternoon I attended a praise service hosted in Cabrera by all the former street dwellers whose lives have been transformed.  It was a mix of all ages, songs and testimonies.  Some of the children from the boarding schools were there, reunited with their parents who are now CCT employees.  A 13 year old named Sheila befriended me right away, and was delighted that she was able to practice her English with me!  We sang “Father Abraham” and played a whole bunch of games I haven’t thought of since Sunday School (here’s the church, here’s the steeple!)  And I saw Abigail again…that evening she was leaving for her new home in Puypuy.  Penny told her to be strong, to be brave, and we said we’d be praying for her. 

    To cap off this most wonderful time of year, my amazing family joined together to make Christmas cIMG_2378ards for the children in CCT’s boarding school in Malungon.  This school is in the southern Philippines, and doesn’t get any of the attention at Christmas that the schools here near Manila do.  The children are from the B’laan tribe, an indigenous people group who are extremely poor, remote, simple, and often victim to child trafficking and exploitation.  My family sent close to 200 cards, as well as a generous sum.  The teachers were able to purchase a backpack and imitation crocs for every one of the 100 children at the school!  The kids didn’t have backpacks, and the teachers said now they will feel like they’re really in school!  And many kids walk over an hour each day to and from school, and most wearing only flip flops.  The hand-made cards express from the lips of children in the US, God’s love for these children in the Philippines. 

    I can’t count the number of times this past month that I have been overcome by the outpouring of God’s blessings on the children here.  That he would use me as an instrument of his love is the greatest Christmas gift I could have ever received. 

    This Christmas, I wish all of you…

    immense JOY that comes from experiencing God’s presence

    immense LOVE that only He can pour into you and through you

    immense PEACE that comes from resting in His sovereignty

    and the immense BLESSINGS of his glorious riches

    And all of this, we can experience because of the baby born in Bethlehem. 

    It truly is the most wonderful time of year!  Merry Christmas!! 

  • Asian Fun Facts

    Asian pears are also expensive in Asia

    “Comfort Rooms” are anything but comfortable

    Karaoke is not contained to seedy bars…people unabashedly sing in department stores and on public stages

    While running along the bay if I suddenly decide that I don’t like how my nails look, or that my muscles are sore, or that I want some new ink, I can readily get a mani/pedi, massage, or tattoo

    Common pests are not your common pests:

    • Fire ants can eat through ziplock baggies
    • Mice aren’t afraid to come onto my bed while I’m sleeping in it
    • Geckos like to run over my bare toes in my kitchen
    • Cockroaches love my electric toothbrush. They also bite. And leave tracks.
  • Sisterhood of the Traveling Pumpkin Bread

    For as long as I can remember, one of the dishes I’ve looked forward to most each holiday is my Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread.  This pumpkin bread has ruined me from being able to enjoy any other pumpkin bread out there.  It is incredibly moist but with a slight chewiness, and the sweetness is tempered by an intense pumpkin flavor and perfect blend of spice.  Some loaves are flecked with walnuts, some with chocolate chips, and some left plain (for the pumpkin purists).  Our family has been enjoying this treat since long before the dawn of America’s pumpkin craze/commercialization…did you know that the first day of autumn is no longer September 21, but it’s been officially changed to the day in August when Starbucks releases its pumpkin spice latte?

    Growing up I’d always spend Thanksgiving morning helping my mom in the kitchen or setting the table (probably a bit begrudgingly) but would always get excited when tasked with slicing the pumpkin bread and putting it on a plate, as I got to nibble on any crumbs that “accidentally” appeared, while knowing that there’d be mutiny in my family if I dared take a piece before dinner was served!  My cousins and siblings are equally obsessed, and we would always fight over the leftovers, savoring each bite, and reminding ourselves that more would be coming to another holiday soon (we now request it at Thanksgiving, Christmas, and Easter!)

    Our family is now scattered about, so when any of us can’t join the Ondrick/Rogers clan in Mass, we just bake the pumpkin bread ourselves.  The first Thanksgiving I ever spent away from my family I was in Italy for culinary school.  As the leaves started to turn and the air got crisp, I started to crave pumpkin bread.  Fresh pumpkin was easy to find, but I couldn’t find canned pumpkin anywhere.  So I bought a fresh pumpkin, cut it up, and cooked it in a cryovacked bag in my school’s steam oven.  I then stayed late after class, joined by two classmates, to pass the pumpkin through a sieve, yielding a delicious creamy puree.  We changed out of our uniforms and puree in-hand, attempted to head home.  Now, our school was in an old castle with a 12 foot wroght-iron gate surrounding it.  It was close to 8pm, and when we tried to leave, the gate was locked…we were trapped inside the school grounds!  We went back into our building and looked for anyone who was still lingering or a janitor cleaning up from the day, but everyone was gone!  Trying not to panic, we began searching for a way out, while periodically calling out for anyone who might hear us to come to our rescue.  Finally we found a back entrance where the gate was only about six feet tall.  We rallied our courage, threw our bags (and pumpkin) over first, and then helped to hoist each other over the gate!  I baked two loaves in pans I borrowed from school, brought one in to share with my class, and kept the other for my roommate Christine and I to eat for breakfast.  It was so worth almost having to spend a night sleeping in our school kitchen!

    On the actual day of Thanksgiving that year, I had moved on from school and was staging at Ristorante l’Angolo d’Abruzzo in Carsoli, Italy.  The restaurant owner, Lanfranco, asked if I wanted to cook a traditional Thanksgiving meal for the kitchen crew, and I excitedly agreed!  The chef, Valerio, asked what ingredients I would need – turkey of course, potatoes, chestnuts, fresh currents (as a substitute for cranberries), apples, and of course pumpkin.  A few days before I was to cook this feast, Lanfranco informed me that the only turkey they were able to find weighed 30 pounds!  This was out of the question, so the whole dinner was in jeopardy of not happening.  I stayed optimistic, and the day before started preparing some items – currant “cranberry” sauce with orange and spice, dough for my apple crostata, pumpkin pie, and pumpkin bread.  All the cooks scrunched their noses at the idea of a dessert made of pumpkin. “How can this be?  Pumpkin in a cake?  It makes no sense!  Surely this can’t taste good!”  I just smiled and thought, “they’ll see!”  That night, Lanfranco still didn’t know if the turkey was going to arrive, but early the next morning I awoke to him yelling, “Ashley, la tacchino e arrivata!”  The turkey had arrived!  I jumped out of bed, threw on my clothes, and ran down into the kitchen.  I examined the turkey – it was about 15 pounds and a real looker.  I made a stuffing with roasted chestnuts and apples and got it into the blast chiller so that I didn’t give us all food poisoning (never stuff a cold bird with hot stuffing!)  I got the turkey stuffed an into the oven, then made an apple-mock mincemeat crostata with an almond crumble, buttery herb biscuits, and mashed potatoes.  The sous chef, Manuel, was supposed to come in and help me, and when he finally strolled into the kitchen later that morning all he cared about was seeing where the turkey was stuffed…nel cullo!  Lanfranco had invited a bunch of friends over, and I was now feeding a group of 20!  He uncorked some wine as I brought out all the dishes, serving them family style of course, and then Valerio attempted to carve the turkey.  He was looking at it like it was a foreign object, and before he butcher the poor bird, asked if I’d carve it instead.  They all sat in amazement as I removed the legs, carved the breast, and then the dark meat.  And the meal was a hit!  When it came time for dessert, I whipped up some cream and served a small slice of each of the three tortas.  This was a tough crowd, and lets just say that I don’t think America’s obsession with pumpkin sweets will ever catch on in Italy.  But everyone cleaned their plates!  That Thanksgiving is definitely one I’ll never forget.

    Now here I am spending Thanksgiving in Manila.  As the warm summer turned to fall in the US, July to November is rainy season in the Philippines thus it’s been hot, humid, and rainy since I arrived.  But without any change in seasons to spark my pumpkin cravings, it happened anyway!  I’ll blame it on social media, since pretty much all my Instagram and Pinterest feeds are food-related.  One day while browsing the grocery store shelves (one of my favorite activities) I found a lone can of Libby’s pumpkin!  I was so excited, but on further inspection I found the can dented and dirty, and the expiration date told me it had been sitting on the shelf since last year.  I acquiesced to living without pumpkin for a year, and besides, our condo doesn’t have an oven (stay tuned for an upcoming post on “life without an oven”!)  Shortly after, my amazing cousin Lily told me she wanted to send me a package and asked what I’d like.  I immediately responded, “pumpkin”!  She mailed the package the beginning of November, and three weeks later when it still hadn’t arrived I started to worry.  I prayed all week that it would arrive by Thanksgiving so that I’d have some taste of home.  Wednesday evening while at work I received a notification that my package was ready to be picked up at the post office!  What an answer to prayer!  I would be picking up my package on Thanksgiving!  Thanksgiving morning I received a sweet email from my Auntie Linda, telling me that she was baking away…pumpkin bread, sweet potato casserole, and she even sent a picture of a loaf in an adorable pumpkin patch pan sent to her by…Lily!  I loved the email and could smell the sweet spice from her kitchen as I read it.  But man, did it make my mouth water for some pumpkin bread!  I think I was craving that more than any other Thanksgiving food.  I decided that I would request it at the next holiday I spent at home, and tried to put it out of my mind.  Penny and I went to the post office to pick up my package, dodging Jeepney’s and the other wild motorists here.   I couldn’t wait to open it, and found it filled with pumpkin goodness – pumpkin spice coffee, pumpkin crackers, and something wrapped tightly in tinfoil and plastic.  As soon as I began to open it, I was hit with the unmistakable aroma…it was Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread!!  Lily had baked me a loaf, brimming with chocolate chips that helped keep it moist.  I broke into it with my bare hands, with the biggest smile on my face, savoring every bite.  It didn’t matter that it was now three weeks old, and had traveled half way around the world.  This pumpkin bread is the best!!  My first thought was that I couldn’t let anyone here know about my treasure.  I would take it back to my condo, and slowly eat it over the next week (or who am I kidding, eat half of it that night for Thanksgiving dinner!)  But the more I thought about it, the more I knew that I would enjoy it most if I shared it with others.  That’s what I love about being a chef – sharing meals together, seeing the delight on people’s faces when they are enjoying good food. 

    All night I kept smiling when I thought of this recent series of events…going from missing my family and our Thanksgiving feast, to my amazement and delight when I opened Lily’s package and found the pumpkin bread inside.  These are the moments when there is no denying that not only is there a sovereign God who makes null coincidence, but that he is intimately in tune with all our needs, and loves to delight his children. “And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”  (Ephesians 3:17-19)  One of my favorite verses, and was part of my day’s devotions!

    My breakfast this morning consisted of a hunk of pumpkin bread and a steaming mug of pumpkin spice coffee.  I then cut the loaf into pieces, just like when I was a kid helping my mom on Thanksgiving morning, left a piece for my roommate, and brought the rest into work with me.  As I unwrapped the loaf in my office, I shared with my co-workers the story of the pumpkin bread, how it’s my Aunt’s recipe that we have at every holiday – a family favorite, and how my cousin had baked this and shipped it all the way from the US to Manila.  Together we finished every last bite, and they kept exclaiming, “masarap!”  which means, “delicious!”  Don’t be surprised if the pumpkin craze does catch on in the Philippines!   

  • My Auntie Lor

    This is a very special post, dedicated to my Auntie Lorilee.  Although cancer took her life 6 years ago today, she didn’t loose the battle.  She fought with endless courage, bravery, determination, and strength.  And she did so with unfathomable joy, a sense of humor like no other, and a voracious appetite and command in the kitchen!  And it was her love of feeding people, her excitement over good food, and the enjoyment she got from sharing it with others, that inspired me as a fledgling cook and is a source of continual inspiration as I now cook for others. 

    Auntie Lor would find something she liked…and soon we all liked it!  Now, our whole family is obsessed with good food.  It’s the focal point of all gatherings, celebrations, and holidays.  Of course we’re there to spend time with each other, but where do us women gather?  In the kitchen!  The food is our source of tradition, it’s what we fuss over, it’s what we talk about…”did you see Grandma’s apple pies?!”…“wow, this is a great batch of Auntie MJ’s crab dip!”…”oh the kids helped me decorate the cookies!”…”I used pears instead of apples this time”…“I tried this new recipe from Gourmet…” that was Auntie Lor.  Thanksgiving is coming up, and one of my favorite dishes in addition to Grandma’s French meat stuffing and Auntie Linda’s pumpkin bread, is Auntie Lorilee’s sweet potato casserole.  I’ve loved it for as long as I can remember, but only found out as I got older that it didn’t always grace our dinner plate but got it’s humble start as one of Auntie Lor’s new recipes she tried that year.  And I could go on with examples of such dishes…cranberry Waldorf salad, Charlotte’s chocolate cake, egg strata, chocolate crinkle cookies, apple cake…

    It’s funny how certain things stick with you.  Lock-and -lock containers.  Auntie Lor tried one, was hooked on their “locking” ability as a means of keeping leftovers fresh, and soon had a whole pantry stacked with every shape and size imaginable.  And she told everyone about them!  I’m sure that half of Rutland was going to their nearest lock-and-lock supplier and stocking up.  She should have received commission!  Eventually they lost their popularity in the states, probably as PCB fears gave rise to the use of glass storage containers.  Every once and a while I’d see one and chuckle.  Then I moved to the Philippines.  My first trip to the grocery store I was already shocked at how many familiar products lined the shelves, and in searching for some plastic containers I found…you guessed it, lock-and-locks!  But that was just a small display.  I soon learned there are entire lock-and-lock stores here!  I can’t help but laugh every time I pass by one.  Auntie Lor exuded the kind of passion and energy that she could make even a simple plastic container exciting and “lock” into my brain!

    It was this passion and excitement, coupled with how absolutely delicious everything that came out of her kitchen was, that drew me into the kitchen with her.  I’ll never forget sitting in the kitchen, mesmerized as Auntie Lor explained to me the science behind a flaky pie crust.  How the butter MUST remain chilled and in small chunks, because since butter contains about 15% water, once it enters a hot oven that water turns to steam, and that steam forms layers in the dough that result in a puffy, flaky, tender crust.  I went home and soon after baked my first strawberry rhubarb pie with an all butter pie crust.  (It was Grandma who taught me how to bake my first-ever pie – apple with a shortening crust; the two equally delicious and memorable!)  Auntie Lor made a special breakfast cereal that she once gave me a small bite of.  It was amazing!  I again stood transfixed as she explained her technique: combine bran flakes, fiber twigs, shredded coconut, and slivered almonds.  Drizzle with maple syrup, spread on a jelly roll pan, and bake; every 5 minutes removing from the oven, drizzling with a bit more maple syrup, and stirring.  For the final touch, add golden raisins with yet another drizzle of maple, and bake for one last increment.  This cereal inspired me to start making a maple almond granola, which after a few tweaks I perfected the recipe for and soon had my family hooked on.  Again, I could go on and on with similar stories of the ways Auntie Lor inspired me, instructed me, encouraged me, and fueled the spark that drove me to becoming a chef.

    When Auntie Lor got sick and we all started visiting frequently, it was just known that we would show up with food.  There was no preemptive phone call of, “should I bring something for dinner?” but instead, “I was thinking of making spinach manicotti for dinner.  How does that sound?  Do you want to get the bread from Babalouies?”  Bringing a meal is not something that’s expected in the sense that it’s taken for granted, rather it’s because the act of making a meal is an outpouring of love, an extension of oneself, and this sentiment is mutually shared by all who gather at the dinner table.  Auntie MJ probably made enough meatballs to feed half of Rutland, not to mention clam sauce, francese, manicotti…and so many more amazing Italian dishes that came pouring out of her kitchen with the same love and care as new olive oil flows from the press.  And this held true for the rest of the women in our family as well.  But there’s no way Auntie Lor would let us do all the cooking!  As soon as we’d arrive, it was off to the farmers market to buy ingredients.  Then Auntie Lor would sit and instruct her fleet of sous chefs on just how exactly she wanted the vegetables prepped for the terrine, how the butternut soup should be thinned and seasoned, how to assemble the chocolate raspberry pie (an experience my mom will never forget!), how long to bake the morning glory muffins…

    We ate a lot, and we ate well over those 16 months! 

    We spent a weekend together on Cape Cod at Auntie Mj and Uncle V’s house.  Auntie Lor instructed me on how to make her famous quattro formaggio.  She had brought all the ingredients, and as I went to chiffonade all the basil, she insisted I leave a perfect sprig untouched.  As I pulled the bubbling cheesy crostini from the oven and transferred them to a Polish Pottery platter, she simply but beautifully garnished one side of the platter with the flourish of basil.  That simple herb made the dish complete, and little did I know that not too long after, I would spend countless nights that turned into years, garnishing platters in my job as a catering chef – again thinking of Auntie Lor all the while.

    Yes, writing this post is emotional and oh so bittersweet.  But you know that unfathomable joy I said she lived each day with?  It wasn’t just because she lived for a good joke, and had a family who she loved to pieces, and amazing friends who surrounded her.  It was because she knew that this life wasn’t the end.  She knew that her Redeemer Lives!  I am grateful beyond measure to have had her as my Auntie – for her presence in my life, for all that she taught me, for her influence and inspiration, for these precious memories that flood my mind regularly – and that I know without a doubt that I will see her again one day.  

  • But God…

    In the months between deciding to come to the Philippines and my arrival here, I was so often asked, “but aren’t you scared to go?!”  My answer was always, “Yes!…But God…”

    Yes…moving to the other side of the world on my own, I would have been terrified!  But with God I am never alone.

    God was with me from the moment I got on each plane, where for my first LAX to Manila flight I had a window seat with no one next to me, and slept through the night with minimal discomfort.  My second flight, returning for the wedding, I sat next to two of the friendliest Filipinos who had been living in the States for over 20 years.  One lived in Louisiana and had a German husband.  They met when he came to her money exchange booth at the airport in Manila!  On my third long-haul, my seat-mate was a Filipina who now lives in San Diego with her new husband and his two children.  She is a widow and he a widower, and they were college sweethearts!  They reunited after their spouses died and were married a year ago.  She was coming back to Manilla to try and secure the green cards for her own two children to move to the States with her, where they will all live together as a new family.  I told her I’d pray for her children to be able to move to the US, and she told me she would pray that I’d find a husband!  God answered the prayers of so many who faithfully prayed for me (about my safety and comfort during travel, not the husband part!)

    Yes…not knowing anyone and leaving my loved ones behind, I would have found any and every excuse not to have come!  But we are part of the huge family of God.

    Upon arrival, Penny from CCT greeted me with open arms, a big “Mabuyhuy!” (welcome!) and placed a handcrafted shell necklace around my neck.  Penny has since become a close friend, and I have been taken into the fold by the rest of the “single ladies” group!  All of us are, yes, single, around 30, and bond over our common joys and struggles of living out our faith. 

    Yes…relying on my own ability to stay safe and healthy, I would have turned the other way and run!  But God provides for all my needs. 

    When I’ve gotten sick, I have an office full of Ate’s (big sisters) who’ve brought me gatorade, crackers, and fruit and constantly checked in on me.  When I fell headfirst into a black trench of the dirtiest water imaginable, Ate Nida scrubbed my bag by hand until it was spotless.  When I’ve been slightly lost in navigating, friendly Filipinos have steered me in the right direction.  Although it’s not safe to go for a run alone at night, I’ve found running partners to go with! 

    Yes…facing the heartache of poverty, malnourishment, and despair, I would have said it was hopeless!  But God loves the little children.

    I have seen so much poverty, so many dirty, sickly children roaming the streets.  Seen the sad eyes of mothers who don’t know where their children’s next meal will come from.  CCT is helping to address the needs of so many, and I have met countless individuals and families whose livelihoods and lives have been restored and renewed.  The joint CCT-PEER Servants Child Sponsorship project that I’m working on is also instrumental in helping with what can seem like such a hopeless situation.  One of my responsibilities within this project is writing the stories of the children residing at CCT’s  Visions of Hope Christian Schools (VOHCS) in Magdalena and Puypuy.  It’s such bittersweet work as I write about their transformation.  One boy was abused by his father his whole life, as were his mother and six siblings.  As the eldest he always begged his father to just beat only him, and hated his father so much that he wanted to kill him.  This desire led him to instead run away from home where he found a new “family” as part of a gang.  He was always involved in gang fights, and during one of these, at 12 years old,  he killed a rival gang member with a knife.  He was befriended by a now CCT staff member who used to live on the streets and brought to a CCT feeding program.  He was given the opportunity to attend the VOHCS boarding school in Magdalena, where he is now thriving!  He’s a leader among the other boys and an A student.  His family was also discipled by CCT, his father has stopped beating them, and even apologized to his son for the years of abuse.  There are hundreds of similar stories of transformation resulting from the physical and spiritual nurturing that the kids receive when they are given the chance to start new lives at the boarding schools.  Jesus loves the little children, and I’ve gotten the chance to be his hands and feet in small ways.  One morning, I was really craving a real cup of coffee (or as close to it as I can get here) and went next door to Dunkin Donuts.  Coffee shops do not have brewed coffee readily available but instead brew to order.  As I was waiting for my cup o’ joe, a little boy came inside and started asking me for money.  I brushed him off as sadly I often do, because it’s usually the parents sending the children out begging, and there’s no way to know that if I give them money it will actually result in any of their needs being met.  He left and I kept waiting, but a little while later the little boy returned.  Again I told him no.  I was sitting there staring at the case of donuts, thinking of the fun I’ve had over the years bringing my nephews to Dunkin Donuts and watching as they excitedly picked out their favorite.  Suddenly I jumped up, asked the barista if I could add a donut to my order, called the little boy over, and told him to pick one from the case.  His whole face lit up, his smile reached the far stretches of his cheeks, and his eyes grew wide.  He pointed to a donut while saying, “thank you Ma’am, thank you Ma’am, thank you Ma’am!”  The barista also had a big smile on her face, as did a couple who were sitting at a table.  I got my coffee, went outside, and found the little boy sitting on a perch just outside the door, happily devouring his donut.  He thanked me even more, and I eaked out a “Jesus loves you” as I fought back tears.  I don’t know who was touched more, the little boy or me, and you should have seen the smile on my face for the rest of the day!

    Yes…with the possibility of encountering super-typhoons, earthquakes, and other natural disasters, I would have hid under my bed like scared child!  But God is even more powerful, and his peace passes all understanding.

    I made the mistake of watching that movie about the family from the UK who goes on holiday to Thailand and is swept away in the tsunami.  They spend the whole movie fighting for their lives while trying to find each other.  I think being caught in one of these storms was my greatest fear in coming to the Philippines.  I was so convicted of God’s call for me to come here, so excited for the ways that he would grow my faith, and so terrified of being swept away in a flood!  Another project I had been and am working on is recovery from Super-Typhoon Yolanda.  After watching the tsunami movie, and as I learned more about the storm’s strength, magnitude, and devastating effects,  I would have nightmares that I was being swept away in a flood!  Plus my doomsday-prepper brother Alexei had the thoughtful idea to make me a typhoon “prepper” kit complete with a water purifying straw that I could use to drink from anywhere – even a dirty puddle, a solar-powered lantern,  and other survival gear.  This both comforted and terrified me even more!  While wrestling with this fear prior to leaving, we sang the most amazing and fitting song at church one Sunday.  It became my anthem for this trip, and emboldened and empowered me to face any storm enrobed with God’s peace, power, and strength.  The day in July that I was leaving for Manila, what was hitting the Philippines, but a typhoon!   My plane touched down just after Typhoon Glenda brought widespread devastation, damaging both of CCT’s boarding schools and their training and retreat center, and just before Typhoon Henry threatened to do the same a few days later.  I just missed the floods in Manila, the howling winds, and heavy rain, and only had to hear about it from coworkers and maneuver through the branches and debris left on the streets.  Other typhoons have struck but none in Manila, until one hit the city in September, while I was back in the States for the wedding!  There’s still over a month of rainy season left, and November marks the one year anniversary of Typhoon Yolanda.  And will I be scared if one hits – for sure!  But God.  Here’s the song that spoke to me so much, that I often hum while going about my day.  I hope the words wash over your mind like they do mine, and bring you peace! 

    “Oceans”

    You call me out upon the waters, the great unknown, where feet may fail.  And there I find you in the mystery, in oceans deep, my faith will stand.

    And I will call upon Your name , and keep my eyes above the waves, when oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace, for I am Yours and You are mine.

    Your grace abounds in deepest waters, Your sovereign hand will be my guide.  Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me, You’ve never failed and You won’t start now.

    So I will call upon Your name, and keep my eyes above the waves, when oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace, for I am Yours and You are mine.

    Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me.  Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger, in the presence of my Savior.

    I will call upon your name, keep my eyes above the waves, my soul will rest in Your embrace, I am Yours and You are mine

    Hillsong United

  • Only in the Philippines!

    In recent news from Manila…

    • I’ve learned that not only are Asian people obsessed with taking selfies, but they use “selfie sticks” to hold their cameras at a further distance and better angle
    • I’ve been serenaded in a department store by a woman who decided to test out the karaoke machine and sing several songs from the Adele 21 album
    • In the span of one day I’ve now ridden in a car, plane, Jeepney, Van Van, and pedicab  
    • I’ve eaten coconut sticky rice and mango ice cream (that was phenomenal) and green mango ice cream with shrimp paste (that was disgusting!)
    • I’ve experienced my first monsoon-type rain and flooding.  The sidewalks were like rivers, and I had to walk in the road, dodging traffic as I tried not to get swept away
    • I’ve also experienced the flooding in Manila.  There was a thunderstorm that lasted about an hour.  My roommate Sarah and left work at 6pm and were heading to a class at a gym in nearby Makati.  The streets were flooded, and we walked along the sidewalks trying to reach the train.  The line was so long that we decided to walk to the next stop.  The line there was even longer, winding down 2 flights of stairs and down the sidewalk!  We continued walking and got to a point where the water was so deep that some boys had set up narrow benches and were charging a fee to cross!  I paid the P1, was escorted across, only to be again trapped by more water!  We were almost walking in circles, trying to find either a Jeepney or a cab, and finally ended up just walking the whole way home.  After several attempts we found a cab that would use a meter (costing about $2, not the inflated $6 flat-rate the others were trying to charge), and then we inched along through traffic to reach the gym.  A trip that should have taken 20 minutes took us over 2 hours from the time we left the office!  We missed our class, and ended up just getting dinner!  As I was laughing at the the ridiculousness of the situation and admiring the ingenuity of the boys and their makeshift bridge, my bridge escort yelled out, “only in the Philippines!”
  • Over the River and Through the Woods…

    I returned Sunday from yet another adventure, seeing more of the work being done by CCT’s Nehemiah Project!  After my last adventure, I thought perhaps I knew a bit of what to expect for the next trip I was embarking on.  I even packed differently, switching out my beat up Toms for my nicer ones, and packing a pair of heals to wear to the dedications, as I was the only one in flats at the previous ceremonies (athough, for the first time in my life I am considered tall, and in my flats am the same height or still taller than many of the women in their heals!)  I was heading to the provinces of Capiz (as in the Capiz shell, one of the sources of income) and Iloilo in Central Visayas – the seafood capital of the Philippines!  Project Manager Anna Mae who accompanied me on my last trip was supposed to be meeting me in Roxas City, Capiz, but last minute she was needed at the office in Manila to prepare for meetings with sponsors, so she sent me off alone.  After some persistence/near insistence (after the last trip I wasn’t taking any chances), she assured me that the local Nehemiah team would meet me at the airport and take great care of me during my stay. 

    The flight to Roxas City, Capiz was beautiful – I flew over larger islands with rolling mountain ranges, small islands surrounded by turquoise water, and one island composed of a crater with a lake in the center, and a smoking volcano at the end of a peninsula.  As we approached Roxas City, I noticed that the landscape changed to a series of man-made ponds, which I later learned are where the indigenous Filipino “milkfish” are raised.  The airport was again small and sparse, and this time I was greeted by a mariachi-esque band of men and women playing instruments and singing.  Ates Connie and Sheila, part of the local CCT team, were waiting for me and recognized me by my “barbie-like” appearance.  They whisked me away to where we would eat our lunch – at the home of one of the community partners (since CCT operates as a coop, their “clients” are instead referred to as “community partners”).  We went to the home of a woman whose husband owns a boat and catches seafood for a living.  She is active in the community and holds fellowship meetings at her home.  She had prepared a seafood feast for us!  Steamed crab legs, crab bodies with a potato & carrot stuffing, milk fish soup, stuffed baby squid, fried baby squid, fried lumpia (Filipino egg rolls), and of course rice.  I used my few Tagalog words to try and express my thanks…”masarap” meaning delicious, and “salamat, po” – a formal thank you, and they were delighted by this! 

    Next we went to a dedication ceremony for the houses that had been rebuilt with funds from the Nehemiah Project.  We were right next to the ocean, with a view of the fishing boats that had also been newly rebuilt thanks to CCT’s ministry there.  I was introduced to all the Nene’s (mothers); community partners, many of whom were also recipients of the building materials.  Like the graduations I had attended in my previous trip, this dedication ceremony brought together the community, local officials, and CCT staff.  I was again introduced as a guest of honor, except this time Ate Sheila put me on the spot and asked me to get up and say a few words!  I didn’t know what to say (and don’t really know what I said!)  About 10 community partners at this location had been given P15,000 worth of building materials to restore their homes, and they all got up and shared their stories and expressed their thanks, often through tears of joy and triumph.  After the ceremony, we set out to see each one of these homes, ask God’s blessing on the home and the family, and the CCT staff insisted they take my picture with teach of the proud recipients.  And so started the “Barbie Goes to the Philippines 2014” photoshoot!

    So in comes my shoe choice…thank God at the last minute I opted for my Toms (albeit my nice pair) over my wedge sandals, thinking I’d be walking a lot in the airport.  To visit these homes we wove our way through villages or “barangays” on narrow dirt paths lined with curious locals, as we dodged stray cats and dogs, stepped over “free-range” chickens and roosters, and tiptoed through pig pens!  All the while trying not to step on any of the droppings of the aforementioned animals, as well as trying to avoid the small streams of sewage/water tricking down from pipes.  All the houses we visited were made of different combinations of materials, and all the partners mentioned that their houses were now sturdier than they ever had been before the typhoon.  Some were concrete with tin roofs, some brick, and some plywood.  Those were the tame ones.  Since the sea is the source of livelihood for most of these residents, the sea is where they live!  One house we visited was set right over the water on stilts – and we walked a zigzag bamboo plank for about 20 feet to reach this haven!  The bamboo creaked under foot, and the water was a murky brownish-green.  I prayed so hard not to fall in!   And can you imagine if I had been wearing heals?!  The house was made completely out of bamboo, which grows in the mangroves around the sea and is used in abundance. Thin bamboo strips were nailed together to form the exterior, while even thiner strips were woven together to form the walls and floors.  Even the furniture was bamboo!  The fishing boats also use long pieces of bamboo as added balance on either side of the boat.  After safely descending from this house and kissing the solid ground…well maybe I would have if it wasn’t covered in who knows what… we trekked up a small rocky mountain to reach the next house.  This one made of bamboo, wood, and a tin roof, and to descend the hill we climbed down a steep bamboo ladder.

    The next day there was another dedication ceremony in another barungay, this time on a mountain, followed by trekking up the mountain through tall grasses and again through chicken coups to reach the houses.  By the third dedication ceremony on my third day there I was a pro!  I had come to expect being asked to get up and say a few words, but at each dedication I could never anticipate the different testimonies I would hear from the grateful recipients and others who were touched by God’s work through CCT.  One town official said that in her 19 years of working for the municipality, she had never encountered an organization purely giving anything away to the residents without asking for anything in return.  She was so touched.  And I can’t get over the generosity of the people we met.  From the little they have, we were given snacks of rice cakes, candies, cookies, spaghetti, coconut custard, and a huge bag of prawns from our very last stop!  It was worth all the trekking through soiled streets and over murky water to meet these joyful Filipinos who finally have a secure shelter to call home, can get a good night’s rest to face a long day of work, and are part of this community that is working together by the grace of God to become whole again.

    On my second day in Capiz, we went to an early morning fellowship meeting – a weekly gathering of community partners that’s part Bible study and part savings collection/loan payment.  To get here I road on a small motorcycle, sandwiched between our driver, a young CCT team member named Milquy, and Sheila.  Some of the neighborhood kids were home from school with “Friday sickness,” and 2 neighborhood men decided to let down the roosters they had been carrying through the streets to engage in the first cock fight I’ve ever witnessed!  Later that morning we went to another savings circle/loan collection and this time to get there we drove in a tricycle – a small motorcycle with a sidecar attached to it.  The sidecar is about two and a half feet wide by three feet deep by three feet high.  At any time, these tricycles can contain the driver, 2 passengers sitting on his motorcycle seat behind him, 5 passengers inside the sidecar (2-3 on the seat, 1-2 facing them on the floor), a passenger sitting on a small rod on the side of the sidecar, 2 passengers perched on the metal protruding from the back of the sidecar, and 2-3 passengers sitting on the roof of the side car!  It’s like a clown car, only there’s no mystery to how many people are going to stumble out of it! 

    My third day, Saturday, we set out in the morning for the province of Iloilo.  We drove through field after field of sugarcane and corn, often with rolling mountains in the background.  In the town of Gogo we saw the houses that a CCT partner, the Union Church of Manila, had donated – 130 in total!  When we arrived in Eastancia, Iloilo, we met up with the local CCT staff there and set out for the small island of Loguingot.  We climbed down a rocky jetty to board a narrow boat, flanked by the steadying bamboo poles.  Our captain used an oar to get us out of the port, then a small motor took over for the 15 minute ride.  We reached the shores of the island and hit ground while we were still about 100 feet from shore; our captain brought another boat over to ours and half the crew transferred to that boat to lighten our load.  He walked us in as far as he could, and when we again hit the sand, we hiked our pants up to our knees, took off our shoes, and walked into shore.  One of CCT’s partners donated school supplies and backpacks to the children on this island, and we were bringing the second installment of these gifts.  The kids and families were so excited!  The kids signed their name as they were called to receive their new backpacks and supplies.  As we sat on the beach, one of the kids climbed up into a coconut tree and shook down coconuts for us!  One of the men got a machete-like knife out and cut a square into the top of the coconuts.  We poured the juice into a pitcher, and were given cups for the juice and spoons to scoop out the tender flesh.  It was so amazing!  The pulp that surrounds the inner shell I’ve learned is called “copra” and is the source of coconut oil.  I’ve seen this being dried on large tarps, and when I asked about it found out that after the pulp is dried in the sun it’s then sent to a processing plant where it’s pressed to extract the oil.  I’ve also seen lots of rice being dried in this way before it’s sent to be milled, and the husks are then fed to the pigs or turned into fuel pelts.    

    So speaking of food, the seafood here did not disappoint!  Thursday dinner and Friday lunch (so that I could see it by day and by night) we ate at a restaurant on the water where you walk up to a case of fish and seafood, choose what you want to order and how you want it prepared, and then it arrives on your table ready to eat!  We sampled prawn soup in a flavorful broth with water spinach.  Scallops the size of a dime served in the shell with garlic butter – so tender and sweet.  Grilled squid stuffed with chills and tomatoes, whole-grilled catfish and another local round fish, steamed oysters, and shell soup made simply of tiny clams in their own broth.  Almost always, food here is served with tiny lime-like citrus called calamansi, chills, sweet vinegar, and fish sauce or soy sauce.  In a small bowl you mix up a combination of those ingredients to suit your taste, then use it to season whatever you’re eating.  I’m obsessed!  The small calamansi, only the size of a large marble, add just the right amount of acidity to so many dishes!  I’m going to have to look into buying a calamansi tree when I get back to the states… Friday night we tried to go to a restaurant down on the bay but it was closed, so we ended up at sleepy resort in town.  We were seated out near the pool, under an overhang, where a few families were swimming.  We ordered garlic shrimp, native chicken soup, and fresh lumpia which are a type of crepe stuffed with shredded vegetables, and topped with peanut sauce.  Delicious!  While we waited for our dinner (which took about an hour – I guess they weren’t expecting many guests!) I looked up, and the ceiling was covered in lizards!  They range from 6 inches to over a foot long, and make a chirping noise, but they eat the bugs so I wasn’t complaining!  For lunch on Saturday we went to a gorgeous resort in Iloilo overlooking several islands.  We had milkfish soup, and fried chicken, calamari, and prawns.  The prawns were battered and fried whole – head, tail, and shell-on.  At first I attempted to remove the shell, but it was difficult because it was encased by the batter, and I ended up getting so little flesh.  I covertly looked around to see what everyone else was doing, and in the mix of calamari and fried chicken couldn’t quite tell.  So I tried a bite with the shell from the center portion, and it was good!  Crunchy and flavorful.  I know that the most flavorful part of the prawns are the heads, so my next piece I got a little more adventurous and tried a bite where the body meats the head.  This was also delicious, so my next bite a tried the whole head!  It was so good!  By the end of the meal, I was eating the entire thing…tail and all!  I should mention that food here is so inexpensive – a typical meal out costs about P200 per person, about $4.50!  Saturday night we returned to the CCT office with the bag of prawns we had been given, and a few of the team members hung around for dinner.  Genesis, a recent graduate and new recruit, cooked the prawns in the rice cooker since it was the only cooking element there.  He flavored the prawns with sprite (which I’ve learned is the secret ingredient to many dishes!) and a magical flavoring packet called “sarap”, which I was informed by Sheila , “makes everything taste so good without even adding salt or anything else.”  That’s because the ingredients includes iodized salt, MSG, and chicken flavoring!  There are whole isles in the grocery stores devoted to this type of seasoning!  We rounded up all of the food we had been given and had quite a feast.  During these meals and during my trip, I got the chance to talk with a lot of the CCT staff, hear their backgrounds, the joys and struggles of working in this field, and their prayer requests.  And above all I noticed how joyful they are!  They love to laugh, are constantly teasing each other (much of it had to do with me because the boys kept secretly snapping candid photos of me!)  And almost everywhere I went, the first question I was asked was if I am single!  Filipinos are obsessed with this fact, and not only directed at me, but to anyone new they meet!  (Don’t worry mom and dad, it’s not making me want to start dating here!)  It was quite a trip to say the least!  And now I have an even better understanding of the work being done there, which will help me in reporting back to all the donors and sponsor organizations. 

  • Livelihood, Skilled Workers, Infrastructure

    The Visayas region, the middle of the Philippines’ three regions, took the brunt of the damage when mega-typhoon Yolanda hit the Philippines last November.  Center for Community Transformation (CCT) responded by meeting with local officials in some of the hardest hit towns to discuss both immediate relief and long-term recovery.  All of these towns had similar needs in the wake of Yolanda: livelihoods needed to be restored, infrastructure needed to be re-built, and skilled workers needed to be trained. What ensued is now called the Nehemiah Project, and to me it’s one of the most exciting projects I’ll be working on at CCT.  Let me backtrack a minute.  CCT has, for several years now, had a technical-vocational school for the sons of, and for the micro finance partners themselves in some of their poorest regions.  The young men can’t afford to attend college and have no hope of employment.  The fathers who enroll are often in the same situation.  The tech-voc school is paid for by CCT, and these men are given the chance to take courses in carpentry, plumbing, electrical maintenance and installation, and masonry.  After completion of each segment they take the TESDA exam to become internationally certified, and then are given an internship with a company in their field (which often turns into a job offer.)  Without this training, these men often become another one of the thousands of poor and street dwellers that Manila is notorious for.  The graduates of this program are often so thankful for this training that they become teachers at the school! (and now for the Nehemiah Project, which I’ll now get back to.)  So starting last week and for the next few weeks, I’m traveling to the different areas in the Visayas region where CCT has Project Nehemiah outposts.  Last week I went to the regions of Eastern Samar, one of the bottom three poorest regions in the Philippines, and then to Leyte.  I flew out Thursday afternoon for Tacloban, and I knew before-hand that once I landed it was a 6 hour drive to Eastern Samar, but I was told that Ate Pet would be meeting me at the airport (and I assumed driving me to Eastern Samar.)  The Tacloban airport is a bare-bones building with a tin roof, open sides, and one conveyor belt for baggage.  The bathroom had a large water bucket fed by a hose that before and after each flush, I had to scoop out some water and dump it into the toilet (which was a low bowl, no seat.)  This meant that the whole bathroom floor was flooded because people often miss the bowl when dumping in the water!  What they lacked in amenities, they made up for in charisma though…as we de-planed, all the airport personnel sang us a welcome song with a corresponding dance!  I texted Ate Pet that I had arrived, and thought it a bit strange when she replied in Tagalog.  She told me Ate Regie would be picking me up, and I found her soon after.  We got into a Jeepney together, and Ate Regie informed me that they were expecting the Filipino Ashee from the CCT office!  They must have been surprised when a white-skinned, English-speaking, blonde walked off the plane!  Ate Regie’s English was not great, (and my Tagalog has grown by about 5 words), and I though she was telling me that we were going to take the Jeepney all the way to Eastern Samar!  Instead, after about a 30 minute ride, we arrived at the “Van Van” terminal.  The Van Vans are Toyota mini-vans that they cram 5 rows of seats into, spaced about 2 feet apart.  Ate Regie led me to a Van Van and told me she’d wait with me until it left.  I thought I had missed something…where was I going?  When would I get off?  Who would be awaiting me in Eastern Samar?  Who did I pay for the ride?  How long would it take?  She finally answered these questions, gave me the cell phone numbers of the local Nehemiah team and put me on the phone with Ate Sheira who told me to get off at the Van Van terminal which is the last stop in Eastern Samar, and that Josh, one of the Nehemiah managers would pick me up.  I found out that it would take about 4 hours, but we couldn’t depart until all 15 seats were filled.  I started getting texts from the team telling me to be safe and that they were praying for me.  We finally got going, and after filling up at the gas station, 2 more passengers were banging on the door to be let on the van!  The driver finally agreed, so they squeezed into non-existent seats.  This began the bumpiest ride of my life.  Most of the roads were unpaved and had more potholes than I’ve ever experienced.  That, coupled with a seat that bounced up and down, and very bouncy suspension on the Van Van, I might as well have been in a bumper car for 5 hours!  And the facilities at the Van Van terminal made those at the airport seem first rate, so let’s just say I endured this ride with a full bladder! We had to pass several security check points and let passengers on and throughout the drive, and finally at close to 11pm we arrived at the Van Van terminal.  Josh came to pick me up in a pedicab, and I was so glad to see him! 

    The next morning Josh, Anna Mae who heads up the Nehemiah Project, and I were joined by Yup, the project director of Woord en Daad – a partner organization on the project, and we were picked up by two directors from ZOA, another Dutch partner organization.  We were heading to the first commencement ceremony for the Skilled Workers of the Nehemiah Project in Hermani, Eastern Samar.  As we drove along, I started to notice that all of the roads were being paved.  I started asking about the road work, and learned that it was all funded by the US government…our taxpayer money!  I soon started seeing large signs that said “Funded by the American People.”  Some were being paved with asphalt, and others with concrete.  I asked about this, and they said that for the most part, the material chosen matches what currently had been used to pave that area, however concrete is preferred, and is usually chosen in the areas where voter turn-out is higher (and the mayor’s opinion is stronger.)  Many of the bridges had been washed out, as was much of the earth on the sides of the roads.  Small shacks that serve as houses had largely been re-built, and often the roofs consisted of tarps from various relief organizations, their logos marking their presence in that region.  At this stage, shelters have been restored to residents, but the towns are still in shambles.  Schools, churches, markets, and community centers all needing to be rebuilt. 

    Which brings me back to the Nehemiah Project.  The residents that lost their livelihoods (smalls stands selling food, produce, or other goods; fishing boats) needed their livelihoods restored.  The towns need their infrastructure rebuilt (schools, churches, markets, community centers), and a fleet of skilled workers would both serve to restore a means of livelihood, and the workforce to rebuild these towns.  Several international NGO’s have partnered with CCT to provide funding, both the training and TESDA certification are provided to the students free of charge, and the graduates of CCT’s tech-voc school have become the teachers and counselors for these students!  They receive training in either Construction Building and Materials, Electrical Maintenance, Plumbing, or Masonry, and upon graduation will be employed by the local government to start rebuilding their town!  The graduation we attended in Hermani was housed in a community center on the beach.  Basically all the buildings and houses in this town are right on the beach, as the landscape is a long stretch of sand and then mountains, and the main source of income is fishing.  The graduates ranged from young 16 year olds to men in their 50s or so. The graduation the following day was on the campus of Eastern Visayas State University.  This school had been severely damaged and was closed for 3 months.  Many students, both male and female, enrolled in the skilled workers program while they couldn’t attend regular classes, and as part of their hands-on training, started rebuilding some of their school!  That graduation took place in the school activity hall, one of the buildings that the graduates had repaired.  The school has just received funding to start more repairs, as has the town, and this new fleet of skilled workers is who they will employ!  All of the graduates, over 100 at each location, were so excited, and for many of them this was the first time they had ever experienced getting any sort of degree!  The ceremony brought together the townspeople, local government officials, the provincial directors of TESDA, directors from the University, partner organizations, and both local and regional CCT staff.  The graduations were more like church services and gave all the glory to God.  I was so in awe of the way that God has used CCT’s presence here because of Yolanda to make his mercies known, and bring people to himself!  Everyone who got up to speak was so thankful that CCT had chosen to work in their town and to partner with them.  Throughout the graduation I was recognized as a “representative from PEER Servants in the US” and thanked for attending!  This was so unexpected!  I was also later informed that everyone, repeatedly, kept commenting about me that, “she looks just like barbie!  Her eyes are so round, and her hair is so blonde!”

    Aside from training skilled workers, the Nehemiah Project also restores livelihoods in the areas of buying new boats for fisherfolk, and organizing coops for the fisherfolk and traders to pool their resources to start other non-fishing enterprises in the the areas of farming and transportation.  And in all of the Nehemiah Project areas, the first services that the residents are encouraged to participate in are savings programs (so that if another natural disaster strikes they have savings set aside, accruing interest), and Bible studies.  It is a truly comprehensive program, helping the spiritual and material needs of the individual and the community. 

    After the graduation in Hermite, Eastern Samar, we walked down the beach to where there were small shacks with picnic tables inside.  The shacks were made of various parts of coconut trees!  The local fisherfolk, to show their appreciation, caught and cooked us crabs, spiny lobster, octopus, and assorted whole fish.  One of the CCT staff had cooked literally a bucket full of rice, and this whole meal was cracked and eaten by hand.  It was the most amazing seafood I’ve ever had in my life!  The crab and lobster was unbelievably sweet.  I sucked every last drop of juice out of it!  The fish was so flavorful, and the octopus was so tender.  And after we ate, we just washed our hands off in the ocean!  The water was crystal clear, and very shallow for about 50 feet.  After this was a sand bar with sand/rock formations rising up about 30 feet.  At the base of these were deep pools of aqua water.  Beyond these sand bars started the deep ocean of various shades of aqua and dark blue.  It was so stunning, and even though I was fully dressed, I wanted to run out to the sand bar and go for a swim! 

    That afternoon we drove to another town where we would spend the night at a woman’s house-turned inn.  After Yolanda she opened her home up to guests, and one of the relief organizations set up their headquarters there.  It was a really tranquil setting, and rice patties extended as far as I could see out the back of the property.  Anna Mae and I shared a room as it was the only one left with air conditioning (it was in the 90’s, and the wet rice patties are breeding grounds for mosquitoes!)  The room was modest but clean, with a set of bunk beds with mis-matched sheets, but I noticed there was no bathroom.  Anna Mae showed me where the “WC’s” were…and now I know where water closet got it’s name!  In the middle of the property there was a row of three rooms.  They were about 10 feet long and 5 feet wide with tiled floors.  Some had a toilet at one end, others just a hole, and there was a low faucet on the side of the wall, a large bucket, and a small bucket.  Once we settled in Anna Mae told me she was going to take a bath.  I thought this sounded like a great idea, considering I was covered in sweet seafood juice.  I went in search of a bathtub/shower but couldn’t find one.  When Anna Mae returned I asked her where the bath was, and she told me she had already showed me where the “WC’s” were!  It was one stop shopping here – use the toilet, take a bath, brush your teeth (by bringing in a cup of potable water, rinsing your mouth with it and spitting it on the floor inside the WC!)  We had a simple but delicious dinner of whole grilled fish, braised chicken (that I later found out was cooked in a Sprite-like soda), steamed okra, and of course rice!  The next day while eating lunch at a restaurant called “Crocs,” I was the only one from our group to order the crocodile!  It’s farm-raised in nearby Palawan (another Nehemiah area I’ll be visiting in a few weeks), and it was delicious!  As the sun set over the rice patties, large lizards that make a loud squeaking noise started appearing on the walls.  Josh came running out of his room and said that there was a frog inside, and he is afraid of frogs!  Yup, our Dutch companion in his 60s, informed us that he’s also afraid of frogs, so Anna Mae and I went in to rescue Josh!  I pinned the frog behind the dresser and tried to fish it out with an umbrella.  When it had no where else to go, it jumped on top of me, over the bed, and under the other dresser!  Finally the inn owner came and caught it.  The next night as the sun set on the campus, I was walking around and noticed a toad.  All of a sudden I realized that they were everywhere!  About 20 of them just on the one stretch of sidewalk where I was walking!  I also saw huge spiders, and a lizard that was over a foot long that had perfectly camouflaged itself to match the cream colored facade of the student center. 

    After leaving the inn in the morning to drive to the second graduation at the university in Tanauan, Leyte, we drove through some of the most stunning landscape I’ve ever seen.  Jungle-like mountains rising up out of aqua water.  Huge  rock formations with hidden caves.  It looked like the Amalfi Coast combined with Cinque Terre, only where in Italy there are brightly colored houses dotting the landscape, here there are shacks made of relief tarps, coconut branches, bamboo, cardboard, and tin scraps.  I saw where beach resorts once were, where boats used to take people to explore the hidden caves, and markets used to sell the freshly caught seafood.  Despite all this devastation, the people’s spirit has not been crushed.  The mayor who spoke at the graduation at Eastern Visayas State University said that where before they had only a single-level health clinic, their new fleet of workers will now build a two-story hospital.  And the old market that is no longer will be replaced with a hyper-mart. 

    I spent the last night of our trip in a hotel that this time had an in-room water closet.  Thankfully the water didn’t travel all the way into the room itself!  The sheets were stained, the floor was dirty, and the inn on the rice patty now seemed like a palace.  But I was thankful to have a roof (not a relief tarp) over my head.

    I’ve been here for three weeks now; I’ve learned how to say “I like fruit and vegetables” in tagalog “gusto ko ng gulay at prutas.”  And I am learning ever more to continually put my trust in God and look to him for protection, guidance, wisdom, strength, and comfort.  All while praising Him for this insanely beautiful country he has made!!

  • Culture Shock

    All I can say is that nothing could have prepared me for what it’s like here in Manila…I’ve been both pleasantly surprised and often heart-sick.  It’s hard to put into words what it’s like here, and all that I’ve seen and experience so far, but here goes.  Manila is SO crowded and SO big, and from what I’ve seen the Philippines in general is SO crowded.  I arrived in Manila early Monday morning and the city was still recovering from Typhoon Glenda, while bracing itself for Typhoon Henry.  The sidewalks were covered in branches that had fallen from the trees, but slowly they’ve been cleared away (I think people take them to use as fire wood to cook over).  Walking around my area of Manila is just such a culture shock.  The sidewalks (where there are sidewalks) are full of street vendors, and the streets are full of fast food – McDonalds, Burger King, Wendy’s, ChowKing, and JolleyBee.  My neighborhood is full of college kids and working class, and it’s a generally safe area aside from the ubiquitous pick pockets. But having this be my entree to Manila was like being dropped off in Harlem and thinking that all of NYC is like that! I’ve since found other areas of the city…the Soho’s, financial districts, historical districts, garment districts etc.  My condo is on the 34th floor with stunning views of Manila and Manila Bay.  There are huge barges on the bay that look like battleships.  When we were hit on Tuesday and Wednesday by the outskirts of Typhoon Henry, the wind was incredible!  I’ve never experienced rain like it rains here – one minute it’s blue skies and sunny, and the next minute there’s a deluge.  And the water just pools on the streets, collecting dirt and trash until it forms a stagnant pond.  My condo has a roof deck with a swimming pool, and after hunting around I found a yoga mat that I take to the roof to do pilates!  I have gotten some pretty strange looks so far, but that’s not stopping me!  My roommate, Sara, is 22 and from Singapore.  We got along instantly…in part because she likes to explore!  On Monday after I settled in, she took me out for my first taste of Manila.  Within just a few hours of being out, we had already taken 4 modes of public transit – the FX which is a small shuttle bus that cost us P15 (about 35 cents), the MRT which is one of the subways, a jeepney which costs P8 (18 cents), and a taxi which cost about $2 for a 15 minute ride.  The jeepney’s are crazy!  They’re modeled after US tanks from WWII, and are long vehicles with open backs and a bench seat along each side.  Each one is uniquely and lavishly decorated, usually supporting a theme, and often these themes have to do with God (it is a Catholic country after all).  The destination is written on the front and side, and to hail the one you want you stand on the street and hold up your hand, or if you’re with a group you hold up the number of fingers corresponding with how many of you there are.  If there’s room on the jeepney, it slows down (note, it doesn’t actually always stop), you hop in the back, and crab-walk scrunched down along the middle isle until you find a spot on the bench to squeeze into.  You then tell the driver your destination, pass down your payment saying “payad po”, and then when you want to get off you either tap the roof or yell “para po”, and the jeepney slows down a bit and you hop off the back.  They are efficient since there are so many people, and traffic is horrible!!  The sides are completely open so it’s been on these rides that I’ve experienced the pollution the most (the exhaust from these is jet black and comes out in big puffs).  I’m going to try and take as many photos of the different designs as I can!  There don’t seem to be any traffic laws here, nor are there crosswalks.  People just dodge cars as they maneuver across the street! 

    Malls here are huge – our neighborhood mall is 5 levels with 1 level devoted just to tech stores, and this isn’t even the biggest mall!  I can’t believe all the US stores and restaurants – Starbucks, Dunkin Donuts, Java Juice, Auntie Anne’s Pretzels, TGI Friday’s, Red Mango, Aeropostale, Crocs…the list goes on.  At the grocery stores there’s Quaker Oats, Smuckers jam, Honey Nut Cheerios, and I even found Braggs apple cider vinegar!  So much of Manila and the Philippines is more “westernized” than Europe (not that I’m at all advocating Dunkin Donuts opening up in Rome!)  I purchased a local SIM card a pocket WIFI that provides internet when I have it turned on, but the signal is generally pretty weak.  Internet across the board here is a lot slower than at home, probably because there are so many more people trying to use it!!  I’m so thankful that Sara knows how to get around, and she’s thankful for my “white skin” because she says people are nicer to us when we have to ask for directions or don’t understand the language.  I am trying to learn Tagalog, the local language!  All the signs here are in English as it is the national language, but people here do not like to speak it.  When they have to speak English, they refer to it as “getting a nose bleed!!”  My poor co-workers for the next 10 months…

    Tuesday morning started my “exposure” week to the ministries of The Center for Community Transformation (CCT).  My driver all week was Kuya Art (Kuya is the polite title for a male elder, Ate for a female).  Ate Elvie was my guide, and she’s a little ball of energy!  We went to the 2 locations of the boarding schools that I’ve been working on the crowdfunding websites for – Puypuy and Magdalena.  Both areas were heavily hit by Typhoon Glenda, and were bracing themselves for Henry.  Electricity was still out.  All along the roads there were trees uprooted and all the banana trees were broken in half.  Those are the livelihood of so many of the people in this area.  I know that a country’s geography plays such a large part in it’s economic standing, but I was really struck first-hand with why a country in a typhoon belt remains a third world country – the people can never catch a break!  Despite all the devastation, I could tell how immaculate they keep the grounds at the schools.  The kids were still smiling and are so precious!  Their swimming pool was black from debris and branches, and just as I arrived we learned there was a 6’ snake in it!  There were 2 Dutch girls who arrived there the day of the typhoon, and the roof of the guest house where they were staying was ripped off only minutes after they were brought to the canteen for safety.  It was so amazing and somewhat surreal to actually be at these schools after hearing about them for so long while working on the website, and picturing what they would be like.  For lunch we went to a restaurant where the tables sit on small huts that are floating on a fish pond!  I got to taste some of the local dishes including seared pork, vegetable curry, tamarind soup with tuna belly, and chicken adobo.  And all served with lots of rice!  Rice is eaten 3 meals a day, and is also a main ingredient in many snacks.  Fresh coconut (buko) grows abundantly, and I also got to try buko pie.  It’s a top and bottom layer of pastry crust, with a filling of thin slices of fresh young coconut and custard.  So good!! 

    The next day we toured CCT’s AU Factory in Dasmarinas, Cavite.  This factory was taken over by CCT 2 years ago, in 2012, under the leadership of Kuya Froi.  The factory was under-performing and the owner decided to close it, causing 1,500 workers to be out of a job.  CCSC, the Coop branch of CCT, took over the factory as a sub-contractor and opened back up with an initial 57 employees.  Operating as a coop, the employees are co-owners, thus sharing in the profits and becoming more motivated to be productive workers.  The workers have daily devotions in the morning and during breaks, are required to purchase health insurance and life insurance, have access to buy affordable housing, have access to loans through CCT credit coop, and enjoy profit sharing.  The factory is now back to employing the full number of people, and productivity has more than doubled.  They now own all the equipment and were still able to turn a profit.  There are managers for the lines, who resolve conflicts.  There is quality control on each line, cutting rooms, CAD rooms (with computers that draw the patterns),  hand-sowing rooms, packing rooms, and a showcase.  When the finished packages are inspected, if there is one problem, all the boxes are opened.  If a product is delayed and the deadline isn’t met, it costs the factory, not the client, and the factory has to send it by air instead of by boat (the recent typhoon that cut power to Manila meant the factory had to stay open over the weekend.)  The brands that are made include Max & Co, Ralph Lauren, Pilcro, Anne Taylor, and merchandise for Urban Outfitters and Anthopologie.  This factory is the minority, but has gotten much attention.  Former street dwellers who are part of CCT’s “Kaibigan Ministry” (which mean friends in Tagalog) are given a 2 month training, and if qualified are employed in the factory as well.  There are 2 more factories owned by CCT, one smaller that makes powdered food products, and one larger.  The scraps from this factory are given to CCT’s Kaibigan Center where the women turn them into rugs.  It was so amazing and exhilarating to learn about this work that CCT is doing, and made me so excited to be working with them!  I also visited their new community center in this area, and another micro-fi branch. 

    Thursday we went to the G54 Parola Fellowship.  This area of the city is walled in, and each entrance or “gate” is assigned a number.  The night before my visit, I was told by my neighbor who works for CCT that this is where the pedefiles, killers, and thieves live.  It was very dirty, there were naked children walking around and many stray dogs.  There was a wake being held, and a coffin with the dead man was on the side of the pathway, there was a cup out for money, and there were a bunch of men playing cards across from the coffin.  The branch here has a pharmacy, medical clinic where they perform procedures and check-ups, and holds 8 fellowships per week.  There are up to 13 women in the fellowships, which is the maximum number.  I interviewed a few of the women and also Kuya Daniel who took his first loan out from CCT 15 years ago for P1,000 ($23) when he only had P700 ($16) to his name.  He most recently took out a loan for P200,000 ($4,600) to expand his grocery business to a second stall, and now employs 6 men!  Through CCT he became a Christian and has learned to entrust everything to Christ.  He is now a mentor to new community partners.  One of the women had a young daughter, maybe 3 years old.  When I went upstairs, the girl asked where “Barbie” went to, and put her hair in a braid like mine! 

    Our next stop was CCT’s Kalaw Feeding/Savings Circle.  Of the over 200 street dwellers that gathered here for the feeding, about 25 are involved in savings circles.  They saved anywhere from P20 to P1,000!  There was a Bible study and I got to hear the testimonies of a few of the women and Kuya Frank, a former street dweller who is now staff of the Kaibigan Ministry at CCT!  He was born and raised on the streets – 14 years.  He was addicted to solvent and either had to steel or work hard to survive.  He started coming to the feedings and then went through CCT’s Kaibigan program.  He showed me a video on his smart phone that CCT made about his story, and he said that despite how materially better off he is, he’s most thankful for the spiritual transformation.  His wife was also in the same situation as he was, and now they are married and she works in housekeeping with CCT.  I also met a parent of one of the boys at CCT’s boarding school Magdalena!  Her son has been in the school for 3 years now!  There is one more girl headed to the boarding school in Puypuy as soon as the electricity returns.  During Typhoon Glenda she was found huddling on a sidewalk under an umbrella.  A few more girls were supposed to go, but now their parents don’t want them to.  I met another woman who kept asking me if I liked her dog, and it was cute but the animals here freak me out.  It kept licking me!  I handed out all the bags of food as the names were called out, starting with the youngest children, then the women, then the men.  They received bags with rice and either sausage, fish, or a salted egg and tomato.  There was also a Bible study at the beginning of the feeding.

    Friday we went to CCT’s Retreat Center in Tagaytay where I’ll be helping with the bakery! 

    We met up with the 2 Dutch interns who had been staying at Puypuy, and also the daughter of one of the CCT board members came with us.  She’s 22, and so sweet; she lives and works in Germany now, and it was fun to talk to her about the Philippines and Europe.  We got a tour of the retreat center – it is so beautiful!  When Typhoon Glenda hit, there were over 400 guests and they all had to congregate in the large function hall.  The canteen across from them had all the glass in the large windows completely shattered.  The guest houses that were built by the Kaibigan workers (former street dwellers) survived with minimal damage, while those built by the commercial builders had their roofs ripped right off!  The slogan for the rebuilding project is “build back better” and they’re only employing the Kaibigan workers! They sell goods from local farmers, like moscovado sugar, coconut sugar, whole grain rice, dried fruit, and coffee.  All kinds of groups come to stay here – church retreats, couple retreats, corporate retreats.  People rent out the amphitheater for weddings and have the reception in the break room.  There are 2 basketball courts, a rec room with games and game tables, and a soccer field.  The rooms are gorgeous as is the artwork everywhere.  Our next stop was the Taal volcano – the world’s smallest active volcano.  It sits upon Taal Lake and there are tiny islands off the mainland, and people live on them!  We were supposed to hike it and you have to take a boat to get there, but there was a chance of rain so we couldn’t go.  Had an incredible view from where we ate lunch and then hiked up People’s Park for another vista.  We passed a ton of pineapple plantations and fruit stalls.  We stopped at one and I sampled the indigenous jack fruit, mangosteen, and lansones, as well papaya, mango, and pineapple.  Peanuts, cashews, and the local pili nut also grow here. 

    Saturday morning we went to the Kaibigan Ministry Center, KKMC in Cabrera.  This center is headed up by Pastor Noel and is the only Kaibigan Coop in the Philippines.  It is completely sustainable/self-sufficient.  The center is a half-way house for woman and children who have been taken off the streets and are in the discipleship program or are being screened to go to the boarding school.  There is also an elementary school in full operation.  There is a water purifying station which supplies the water for local CCT branches, a print shop providing much of the printed materials for CCT, and a taylor – all employing Kaibigan workers.  There are places for people to come in off the streets, take a shower, have a meal, and sleep.  But all very structured.  Street dwellers aren’t used to structure and often don’t know how to answer to authority.  Sometimes they don’t want to leave the streets because they don’t want this discipline in their lives.  Also, so many of the street dwellers came to Manila from the provinces seeking work and more opportunity, then got caught up in a bad crowd and ended up drug addicts and thieves.  At this center there is a multi-step process of discipleship, skills training, and transformation, and then they are either offered employment or offered the chance to return to their province (with free transportation), but only if their families will welcome them, a church body will support them and hold them accountable, and if there is an active micro-fi branch there.  After this I finally went to the CCT office, met my co-workers, and was greeted with a welcome lunch!  Everyone is so nice!  For celebrations they roast a whole pig, called Lechon.  There was also a bunch of fresh fruit and some local dishes.  The staff gave us welcome gifts, mine is a purse made from fibers from the coconut tree.  We took communion together before we then ate our meal.  Everyone is so joyful and thankful. 

    Early Sunday morning Sara and I went to the Legazpi Market in Makati, one of the business/classy districts of Manila.  There were organic farms selling fruit vegetables, and dairy, local products like coconut sugar and vinegar, and vendors selling prepared food.  It was amazing!!  There are so many fruits and vegetables that I’ve never seen before.  I bough Japanese eggplant, fresh bamboo shoots, baby bok choy, carrots, and water spinach, which I turned into a red curry.  Our condo has a sink and kitchen counter, and under the counter were unopened boxes containing a dual induction burner assorted pots and pans.  I opened them all up – it was like Christmas!  And now I’m going to make full use of our “kitchen!”  We went to Victory Church with Michelle, a colleague and now close friend of mine.  It’s part of a group of churches founded by an American pastor in 1984.  It was very modern and western – a bit too contemporary for my taste but neat to experience.  After church we had lunch in an area that reminded me of an outdoor shopping area in SoCal.  We ate at a tea room/cupcake bakery that was so adorable!  I felt so far removed from the hustle and bustle of Manila. 

    Monday I headed to the immigration office to extend my visa.  The office is located in the old district of Manila called Intramuros.  It’s walled in, and looks like what I envision Cuba to look like.  Spanish architecture from their reign in the 1600s.  Two of the original 8 churches still stand – the Manila Cathedral and the Cathedral San Augustin – both beautiful.    

    One cultural difference I’m going to need to get used to is that most toilet stalls do not have toilet paper!  Either you take paper from the sink area before heading into the stall, or there is a hose attached to the toilet to wash yourself.  Also, you do not throw the paper in the bowl, but rather in the trash can.  At the grocery store I found a portable mini toilet paper roll, so I’ll always be prepared!

    I have seen so much just in one week here, and while it’s been difficult at times, it makes me so excited to be working with such an amazing organization that puts Christ first!  Because ultimately, looking at just so much poverty, we can’t change the life on earth for all these people, but we can share the love of Christ with them and give them hope for eternity!